more on love

i have more stuff about love. today i saw something that makes me unable to keep quiet anymore. i felt so geram. with ppl who take love for granted. so far, i know 2 ppl who i really cant stand. why do i say that? well....

1st person...
when i met him in college, he has a girlfriend. i didnt know until like few weeks after i know him. he flirts alot with girls, sweet talk, etc. that's why i didnt know he had a girlfriend. until one day he was talking bout her. but..... he met this other girl from the external class. and slowly they got to know each other better and spent alot of time together. so he decided to break up with his then-girlfriend to be with this girl

i was so exasperated with the guy. and i told kevin never to do such nonsense to me. ever. it gives me a wrong perspective of guys. seriously. i know that not every guy would do such things. but such idiotic guys, makes me tend to make me sum all the guys up to have such qualities.

2nd person...
i met her the first day of my orientation...

"which school are u from?"
"i was doing homeschooling"
"ohhh. why did do u decided to do homeschooling?"
"*shrugs* emmm. maybe cuz it's christian based?"
"ohh really? so ur a christian??"
"yeah =)"
"ohh.. same here same here"

i later found out that she has a boyfriend. always spend time with him. going out for lunch. hang around corners with him. spending whatever break they have together. sit together whenever they have class together. u get the picture. but.... she too met another guy. who is in the same class with her. i must admit that this new guy that she met, is much more leng chai than her current boyfriend la. anyway, sidetracked abit. ahhaa. then she and this new guy flirted alot during classes. doing all the possible nonsense. then recently it got worst.. they pakat to wear same color, same design, stuff like that.

and today, when i was in 1u with kevin.. guess who i saw?? the girl and the new guy... shopping. i mean gosh!!! sigh. faint faint. and the worst part is that the new guy knows that she has a boyfriend from the beginning. but noooooooooooooo..... they dont care. sigh. what has the world become today?

i was telling kevin.. complaining to him. and he was like what happen to their commitment? seriously. they take love so lightly. whenever they see another "better" or more good looking person that comes around, they start forgetting their current relationships and go pursue a new one. or maybe they're not even in a relationship. they dont really love the person that they are with. just a name to brand each other.

maybe they just love the idea of having another person to have around. to hang out with. to call "boyfriend" or "girlfriend". having someone to sms. having someone to call. last time that used to be my idea of a relationship. having someone to call or sms or to share problems with. but now.... i think of a future with that person. i think of planning a life and future together with that person. it might be too early. but im looking towards that goal. not just a boyfriend. but a potential and future husband.

dont get me wrong. i want kevin to be the person that i can share my problems with, to call, to sms, to hang out with, to have him around.... but me being together with him is not just for that... it's also to build up a future together. to look towards marriage. towards the day when we dont have to say goodbye after going out. towards the day when i can wake up and see him in the morning. towards the day when i can officially call him mine.