family trip

malacca here i come!



im so gonna miss my dearest darling sweetheart honey baby =(

actually... im starting to miss him already =(




i wish he could change his mind
oh wells.... i'll force him to come next year
hmph!






p.s this is prolly the most silliest picture of him that i can post up. dont wanna humiliate him. oh the things he does to make me smile

I
LOVE
YOU
BABY!

wedding

wow.. i didnt realize that it has been such a long time since i've last blogged. time has certainly flew past and in a matter of days... it's christmas. then the end of the year. my oh my. this year has definitely passed so fast that it has left me in a daze. i cant believe that i have ended my foundation year and now i have to sit down and think bout which course and which uni. but i have a feeling that the decision has already been made.


it's not like i hate kids. it's just that i dont think i can control them. i dont think that i can be a teacher. i mean like harloooo... even the kids in children church dont listen to me. the ppl in my dorm doesnt listen to me. how would i get a class of naughty-manja-ed-spoit brat kids to listen to me....??

howw...???




anyway... this is not my point of this post. this post is to talk bout kevin's cousin's wedding. ahhaa. phew. btw, his name is kenny. and the reason why im posting all of this in one night is cuz im gonna go for a day trip to JB tmr. and i've fallen ill. so if i dont blog now...... im not sure when will i ever blog. i havent felt this sick for a long time. normally, im the one who takes care of kevin cuz he falls ill more often than i do. but this time it's the other way around. and it feels quite nice actually. aahha.


ANYWAYY....!!!!! seeee.... im talking bout something else again. sheesh. so the wedding..... well, it was quite nice. it's different la. they had a wedding the week before in sarawak. then they had one here. let's just say.... it was a very VERY long day for me. it was church in the morning.... had to "tear" myself apart for a short practice and meeting, then rushed to grace's house to bath, then rush back, ate lunch, had meeting, then cc christmas party began. it all happened in a blink of an eye till i got gastric. how fun could that be. then when it was time for refreshments, i rushed off to get changed for the wedding dinner. then off i flew to saujana hotel or resort... whatever.


so i made it in time for the blessing. that's what they call it. but actually it's the ceremony. it was weird. really really weird. the moment was so awkward and weird. i rather like our church weddings. it's so much better and casual. not so tense. so anyway.... on came the dinner. it was in the room where nelson had his wedding ceremony. it was once again.... weird. cuz normally the weddings we have in church is like tables and tables and tables of guests. but this was just a small dinner. 90% family and 10% colleagues and friends i guess... or should i say 95% and 5%. it was so different. i felt so awkward. what with me being not close to anyone in his family at all. i barely knew all of them. the only ppl that i literally know is his parents. his aunties and uncles were all friendly. but none our age. well.... there were... but they arent close as well. he has young cousins, nieces, and nephews. sigh.

my first 2 flowers from him!
FOC =)

random thoughts

sometimes we love someone so much that we're afraid to lose them
we try our very best to keep them close to our side
making sure that nothing or no one can ever take them away
but most of the time, we dont realize how tight we hold on to them
it might be so tight that they dont have space for air to breathe



never forget the happy times during the bad
cuz sometimes...
that's what helps to keep the relationship going

camp camp camp

camp is tomorrow!
camp is tomorrow!


im so not ready!
im so not ready!

trains

i've sat the lrt this week more than i've sat in my entire life. i've never imagined myself sitting the train just like any normal people. i would always choose a car rather than the train. however, if it's an adventure..... im up for it! =) actually... it depends on who i sit it with la. i dont always sit the train with random people u know. hahaa. sorry. it's late and if i dont blog bout it now.... im afraid i wont have time.

we went to the pavillion on tuesday. it was his way of helping me to celebrate my merdeka day. i had a great time my darling. really really fun! doing all the silly things on the train. we entertained them well. we should have collected money from them huh? sheesh. wasted. bahs.


then we went down to kl on thursday for a whole different purpose. i'll let u have a wild guess......
it involves a tie and a dress shirt, slacks and dress shoes. the mood is serious and nerve wrecking.



guessed it???



yeah well.. being a GREAT girlfriend i am. i decided to give him some entertainment and decided to teman him down to kl. risking my passion for aircond and my "fair" skin. seriously... i told him if i got darker i'll so kill him. so anyway..... off we went for his "interview" as an intern...

what more do we need other than a picture to capture the start of the fun journey
besides, we need a picture where we're not sweating like pigs to keep as memory

in the train
i know.. the lighting is not good. oh wells
whatever

when we've finally reached masjid jamek station as we were told by his cousin. we walked out of the station and just practically stared at our surroundings because we have no idea where we were and all i could remember was the burger king at our right. i remembered that was one on the stops we had during the amazing race. so anyway..... there we were.... looking at all the sign boards which was of no help. looked at everyone walking here and there. drivers who are like uncontrolled maniacs. and at the same time..... the sun was showing no mercy at all



we were walking and walking and walking non stop. i felt like my legs were going to break off. i was so pissed at him cuz he wouldnt stop to ask for directions. u know.... man and their ego's? thinking that they will figure it out and that they dont need the help of others. seriously.... at that moment... with the sun scorching, there is no room for male ego.


so we were suppose to find CIMB and have it to our left. so we found CIMB.... but it was on our right. so i said we should turn around and walk. then he said if we were at the other side of CIMB, it'll still be on our left. so fine... didnt wanna argue with him and decided to follow him. silently i was hoping he was wrong so that i could kill him after.


finally.... he gave in to my constant complains and decided to ask non other than the car park attendant. i was at the verge of screaming!!!!! i mean.... no offense to car park attendants. but but but...... seriously. directions from car park attendants??? bahs. ugh. scream. slap. whack. bang.


then we ask this uncle getting off his bike. and he told us to go straight and then turn right. i was like going to burst di. so off we went.... we walked straight and then i was like... emmm, when do we turn right? there's too many right turnings here. so i said let's just turn right here. so we turned into this dodgy indian place. filled with indians. awww man. im so going to get killed after i write this post. first is car park attendants now indians. people might think that im prejudice. so anyways....


so we walked and walked and decided to go back to CIMB bank. then we found this staff outside smoking and we asked him. then he said it's really far away from the bank and suggested that we get a cab. but HEEEEE didnt wanna get a cab. so we had to find maybank and it's behind it. so guess what? we continued walking...


then we couldnt find a way to get behind maybank. then we stopped this lady and asked her. then she told us it's a brown building and told us where we should walk and stuff. and all the while we were finding for a pinkish building because......!!!!!! kevin's cousin told us that BURSA whatever is a pinkish building. sheesh. i was freaking pissed off by then. i told kevin that if the company do not have a full blast aircond, im so going to kill him.


so thank God... we managed to find the building. and it was really nice. the toilets were amazingly clean. the atmosphere was really nice. they even have a multipurpose court and squash courts. cool eh?! so we went and clean up. tidy up. kevin wore his tie. then off we went and get directions to where the office is.

here we are... sitting opposite a library.
waiting for time to pass by a little
we arrived earlier
the "interview" was at 5
we were there by 4 plus

we sat and pray
commit things to God

this is the reception area
as u walk in, u'll pass the reception area on ur right
this is where we sat while we waited and watched tv
opposite this red cushion, is this really nice and comfy sofa

when ur at the front glass door
u get to see this really huge sign
he fell in love with this sign
we were thinking of ways to take a picture of him with this huge sign

then u turn right and there's this small cozy pantry
they have this nescafe machine
we loved one of the drinks there
it's called choco-chino
super yummy!

so we sat and waited
waited
waited
waited
waited
waited
waited
waited
waited

he was patiently waiting

and i was pissed off

remember i said the "interview" was at 5?
we went in at 4.25
we waited till 6 something
we waited for 2 hours plus
close to 3

STUPID ASTRO AWANI!
BOYCOTT THAT CHANNEL!
i didnt even know what channel was it
didnt even knew it existed

finally!
he managed to take a picture with it

forced him to do it
i was so bored and pissed till i didnt care bout how silly we were

so at about 6.40 something, close to 7, the guy called him in and talked to him. guess how long it lasted?? 10 minutes....? it was so damn fast. he got in and in a matter of seconds, he came out. i was so PISSED!!!!!! seriously. ugh! even now as i write bout thursday.... i can still feel the anger! ugh!



oh wells... i think all in all. that trip made us both closer to each other. we ended the day with tears and a DMC. it was good la. though it was full of different mixture of emotions. haha!


i would like to thank the car park attendant and the uncle-who-got-down-from-his-bike, thanks for giving us all the wrong directions. and to the staff of CIMB who-was-out-taking-his-cigarette-break, and the aunty who-was-walking-from-somewhere who finally has some sense of direction. they were all very nice people. didnt think we were suspicious ppl trying to rob them or something.

and to those who are still reading to this very point. thanks. ahha!


btw, today was the 3rd time we went down to kl. this time we went to the pavillion. cuz the forever21 in 1u sucks. so we had to make a last minute trip down to kl just to get my dress for kevin's cousin's wedding. and maybe christmas...? i told kevin that im gonna thank his cousin for his "good" sense of directions with a toast and a pour of soda down his shirt. hahha.. nah, just joking *angelic smile*

thanks babe for bringing me down to kl for a last minute shopping. rushed like crazy people. ahaa =)

swing swing

he has been good to her... telling that he's here for her no matter how she felt. that he'll never leave her and that she's THE girl. he loves her so much that he's willing to sacrifice alot of things just to make her happy. just seeing her smile makes his heart flutter and his palms sweat. hearing her say i love u makes him grin like a little child who found a box full of treasure.

however, sad to say, the girl let fear and uncertainty grip her. insecurity threatened her to the edge of the cliff. no, she would not literally kill herself. never would she think bout taking her own life. but deep down inside.... she's dying slowly. inch by inch the fear, uncertainty, and insecurity was eating away her joy, her laughter, her happiness.

he feels so frustrated because of the way she's acting. he's asking himself what has he done to deserve this treatment when all he did was showing his love for her. he's wondering what made her act the way she's acting right now. what made her turn her back to him. he could feel her slowly fading away and he pushed himself to hold tight to her. never letting her out of his side and heart.

all she could think about is what-if's. what-if things ended differently. what-if things werent like how they are now. what-if she made a different choice. what-if.... what-if... with all her might she could not stop this series of questions entering her head. she wanted to run away from all of it. when finally she realized. she realized that she tried to do all this by her own might. by her own strength.

she finally understood why was it so hard for her to get over it and accept the fact. it was because of her choice. her decisions. her decisions to wallow in depression rather than bracing the fact that he did choose her! he didnt choose anyone else. but he decided to choose her. her choice of doing everything by her own strength and not God's. that was the solution. God is the solution!

God fulfills my every need
and my every want
i dont need anyone else to do that for me

the knight in black blazer strikes again

well well well
once again the knight in black blazer has come to save the princess

so what has he done this time to receive such an appreciation, one might ask
was it that he bought her the puppy that she has always wanted?
was it an all expense paid shopping spree for an entire lifetime?
or was it a getaway trip to somewhere romantic?


although the princess would love all that, there's just some things money cant buy

1. money cant buy a sincere effort

2. money cant buy joy and laughter

3. money cant buy sunshines and rainbows

4. money certainly cannot buy a person's love for another

last but not least....
money cant buy time together with the one u love


the knight and princess spent 2 full days trying to make the most yummy-not-so-sweet-rainbow-colored jellies. not only did they had the most enjoyable time getting to know each other, they got into a huge fight every time they started making those jellies. but what matters is that in the end.... the love that they have for each other is still strong like the first time sparks flew between them


however, no matter how much the both of them would love a happy ever after like all fairy tales do, they would settle for a day-to-day basis of a "happy ever after"


till the next time.... xoxo =)

randoms

he's super super super super cute!
names galvin chan!
adorable little baby
has cute, natural, VERY soft spiky hair

actually he wasnt THAT fat and chubby
it's just the angle that i took him with
i was carrying him while i was taking a picture of him
hence the double chin and the huge nostrils
but nooooo.... he's not fat

on a very different note......
here's one of the random things we do in college
when we're bored
with too much paper in the comp lab to spare (since i dont think i'll ever wanna study in KDU again)
and too much time in our hands
we managed to create a crowd while doing this.....




wonder what we were doing?
ahhahaha

THIS!
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we even printed it out as well.. since i had like bout 100 over paper to spare.
for each colored print = 10 paper
for each normal print = 1 paper

so we printed out kevin's notes. which took longer than we expected. let's just say we were trying to "fully utilize" the services that the college offered. hahaha *evil grin*

from all the nonsense we did.... we had extra paper. so we decided to print out a picture with our own doodling on it. kevin wanted a star on the picture but i didnt let him to draw one. so anyway, we were SO incredibly smart that we decided to do this in a comp lab that was opposite the printing area. so everyone who was there waiting in line to print their stuff was staring into our comp screen and laughing at what we were doing


but oh wells..... they never knew how fun it felt. booooo to those who tries to act all too matured and prestigious to do such a thing. =P

hair cuts

oh the silly things we do
this was on the way for family dinner

my little warrior

after a hair cut
he looked so cute with what the hairstylist did for him
but he had to mess it up
bahs
nevermind
ur still hamsome to me
ahhahahahha

it's been 11 months

it has been 11 months since i've been in KDU. and i've come to realize how horrible the place is. im sure God has placed me there for a purpose. hope i've touched lives and have been a blessing to ppl

Ms. Shirley
my computing lecturer
KDU should suffer for such a great lose of good and talented lecturer
they should cover their faces and be ashamed of themselves for letting her go

winnie

she's a really funny person la
seriously
never regretted knowing her
but sometimes can make u REALLY irritated

*phew* finally! i can breathe again!

i've been having finals... hence, the long long long M-I-A



today marks the end of my finals! woooo hooooooo!!!!

*phew*

but the worst part has yet to come
my results is coming out on the 20 something of this month
still gotta pray bout it
that all my lecturers are blind and they think that all my answers are correct



even though it's a relieve that my exams are over
BUT
i still have uni to think bout
like what course
blablabla


im currently liking the idea of going to HELP
but..... still havent found what i love yet


well, i love babies as well as taking care of expectant mothers
but....... i dont think there's any course here that offers such a thing

bahs

headache headache


whatever! bahs!
dont wanna think bout it


im going to enjoy sleeping late
waking up late
playing games
doing whatever i want besides studying for the moment
wanna let my brains rest abit


hahaha
like as if it has worked alot
but considered quite alot la

here am i

instead of studying for my accounts test tmr which i know i will obviously fail.... i am actually playing with facebook (and by playing... i mean playing with my pet), reading all the blogs that i can find, playing games, and disturbing kevin.


i mean what's the point of studying when this is just a trial exam? it's not counted anyways.... so why am i worrying bout it? well, actually.... to be truthful to myself. by studying this week, i can actually save alot of time the next week stuffing everything into my brains. because the week after next is my finals and i have no idea whatsoever about what im studying this sem. sigh.


what's worse is that though i get so-called "good" grades in my comp and accounts. i still have no idea what am i studying. most of the time i just read and feed my brains and vomit everything out as i do my exam



ewwwwwww.... i feel so gross when i talk bout vomiting and stuff. sheesh. what's wrong with me. must be the skit practice. hahaa. nah, just joking



awww man... i better get going and study my formula's. but what's the point...??? i have no idea how to start on the questions. most of the time i just wait till it's class and then wait till my lecturer tells me every single thing to do and every single answer. sigh. this is bad this is bad


im thankful for this week's trials. it definitely has helped me see how see-tuuu-pidd i am... bahs. faint. whyyyy God...?? whyyyy...??? why am i such a procrastinator????



oh wells... im gonna go rest my brains by playing some games first. then i'll get down to studying


*angelic grin*

tata!!!

im certainly going crazy

cats cats

gonna do abit of promoting for cats. ahahah. cheh wah. siew peng should pay me more money on top of my pay. bahs. nonsense. she better not see this. anyway, as u all know, i was working at cats last week. i worked an extra day cuz one of the workers was still sick. thank God i worked for another day.




that was the day where new stock came in. and i love love love love new stock. eventhough it's extra work.... but i love rummaging through the pile for fresh new yummy clothes other than those that i always see in the shop.




but we didnt manage to finish up clearing the new stock cuz of the many customers who tried a gazillion clothes and only bought a few. word of advice. if ur not getting it and u think it wont look good on u.... pls pls pls... think twice before u try it on. it really kills the workers. u'll understand when u work in that position. my back has been killing me ever since i've started working at cats. cuz of the mountain load of clothes they try.





oh yeah... where was i.... i was talking bout new stock right? as we were packing up the stuff to leave, i notice this huge plastic bag underneath the counter. so the pat kua me decided to rummage through the bag and guess what i found.....

SHADESSSSSSSSS!!!!!

that makes me look like a fly!!!!!

how nice *grins*

this was not all.. there was somemore but i was too lazy to take somemore pictures and i wanted to leave at that time. so oh wells..... hahahaha =)




i almost forgot that cats was bringing in some shades.



oh wells, gotta wait for another month or so till i go back to working at cats =)

oh yeah oh yeah....

they have a blog toooo *click click click to go see*



siew peng should really really pay me now. ahhahaa.

the gardens

kevin and i went to the gardens on friday. we fell in love with that place. it looks so much comfy than the pavillion. before we went, i was reading one of this blog that i stalk, she said that whoever went to the gardens should really try the sofas on the ground floor. i told kevin about it and everytime we wanted to go and sit on the sofa, there'll be like handful of people sitting on the sofa. so being the shy me, i wanted a time where we had the whole sofa place to ourselves. but too bad, we didnt have that chance. so i only managed to try it by the time we had to leave =)



the place is really nice. once we've walked in the gardens and when u moved back to midvalley u can feel the drastic change of atmosphere. it's definitely not as nice to walk in midvalley but still there is more crowd over at midvalley. oh wells, i wonder how are they all gonna compete with each other. seriously.

us

i love this criss crossy way

this effect is really cool
at the other side of the wall, there's about 5 light projectors or something
and around it there's like loads of small little lights
bahs
dont know how to explain la
go see it for urself
kevin says they are trying to kill 2 birds with one stone
sheesh
ahahahha

going up and down the escalator in the robinsons

at the sofa
we laughed and laughed so much

shock

i was so shocked and emmmmm.... flabbergasted today. once was bad enough. but noooo... it was twice. God certainly did not prepare me for today. sigh. well, what happened was that i found out that 2 of my friends (well, cant really call them my friends cuz im not close to them... just emmm... normal friends...? i dont know) anyways.... emmm.. where was i....? oh yeah.... well, siew peng told me today that she had to let go the manager in bangsar. the one who i work with last year.


she was really nice. friendly. she was like a big sister to me. she bought me lunches or dinner. told me what good foods are there in bangsar. what clothes to get from cats whiskers. i was growing to love the manager as well as the other girl (the 3 of us usually work together) the reason why siew peng had to sack the previous manager was cuz she stole from the shop. a couple of times. that's why


so that was a shocker there.......


anyways.... today i started work again at cats. today and tmr to be exact. siew peng called me before the hols, asking me whether me or my friends wanna work.... so i asked this girl in my math class. i cant say that we're close, good buds. but we talk occasionally. mostly bout math and studies. mostly. and i asked my friend whether she wanna work. she was really excited to work at cats cuz it's like her most fav. store or something.


the horrific call came at bout 9 something at night while i was out with kevin. from siew peng. i was surprised that she called me. and guess why she called....? my friend stole from the shop and the manager found out and the manager no longer wants my friend to work at cats. i was so shocked and surprised. kevin was so worried. he was wondering what happen.. cuz i kept apologizing to siew peng. i was so disappointed. seriously. oh my goodness. i told kevin that luckily this happened towards the end of my foundation..... if not i dont know how am i gonna face my friend.


seriously.... i dont know why this is happening to me. but i was doing my QT this morning. and it was talking bout the circumstances in our lives. the bad circumstances. and through that, we should learn to trust God because God can see the bigger picture and we can only see this far. and that God will use our circumstances for the benefit of our future. well, i dont know what is He trying to teach me now. maybe to teach me not to trust ppl so easily. or that ppl i think i can trust will one day betray me. i dont know. sigh. this is so complicated


im still shocked over what has happened. i seriously seriously feel so sorry. i feel so guilty. dont know how am i gonna face siew peng. awwwwwwwwwww man

day trip to kl part 2

well, im not sure whether u guys remember our first adventurous trip to kl via train. *click*


this time on friday, we went to kl again. this time we decided to go to this new shopping complex called the pavillion. we went for pan mee in the morning and off we went to subang ktm train station and there our journey begun. at first, we wanted to go to midvalley's the garden. but we decided pavillion because we can go midvalley anytime. also because we dont know kl roads. so it'll be dangerous for us to drive down to kl.


too bad this time we didnt get anything. we were so depressed because we saw sooo much stuff that we wanted to buy but couldnt. sheesh. nevermind.... i'll go shopping when i work at cats this week. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! *evil grin*

just leaving the pan mee place

we parked in carrefour and walked to the ktm station

waiting for the train at the ktm station
now i realize how blue the sky was
bahs

actually, i cant remember where were we
hahaha
bahs
i think we've reached emmmm what's that place called?
isetan or something
the same area as bukit bintang and stuff

we went to pavillion with a goal. we wanted to try out this donut place called j co. or something like that. kennysia.com blogged bout it. but the one that he was talking bout was in jakarta or something. however, we didnt get to achieve our goal because my poor baby's wisdom tooth decided to give him trouble on that day. so cham. he didnt had the mood to do silly and crazy stuff


he was still doing silly stuff but not as silly as his usual self. hahhahaa but we still had fun la.. slipping and sliding our way from shop to shop. ahahaha. if u know what i mean dear =)

our trip however, was cut short by the stupid rain. sighhh.. and this time it wasnt like the last time. it wasnt drizzling. this time we could really see the dark clouds and the wind was so strong. gosh! i was so scared. we wanted to leave at bout 3 something 4 but we had to leave at bout 2 if we dont wanna get caught in the horrible rain




i think it's a sign. a sign that we shouldnt take public transport. because it rained as well the last time we went on our adventurous trip. maybe we should drive next time. ahahah =) but kevin thinks otherwise. so anyway..... when we reached the monorail station, it started drizzling. then when we stopped at kl central, it was raining slightly heavily. and when we reached subang ktm station. fuiyohhhhhhhh!!!!! it was scary!!!!!! the rain was so heavy. the thunderstorm was so loud! everyone had to wait there because if u were to run to ur car, u would be drenched. u would look like u just showered in ur clothes or something. so we wait till the rain subsided which was at bout 3 something 4. bahs *sweat*



so many people were looking at us when we took pictures. they must be thinking what jakuns we were. hahaha

look at how drenched we were
when we ran, the rain subsided a little
but it wasnt drizzling at all
it was fun running in the rain
we laughed till our stomach hurt
hahahaha

he's sweet after all..... ahahahha

usually, i have 2 hour breaks on thursday. so kevin comes earlier to find me for lunch then i'll have an hour class then i'll find him again. then i'll go back. but last thursday, he did something really really sweet for me.

he arrived in college at bout 12

estee: where u wanna eat? i feel like eating wan tan mee
kevin: no no.. we go eat at the mamak (some place near college. which looks really dodgy and gross!)
estee: noooooooooooooooooooo.. i dont wanna eat there. *throws tantrum*
kevin: yesss... we're going there

there's a park opposite of the mamak. so he parked beside the park and we sat there for a while. he said he cooked lunch. maggi mee goreng with chicken drummets. i was shocked. it was so sweet of him. ehhe. the weather was great as well! it was so windy and there was no sun because it rained in the morning. so we sat in the pondok. ate. and we proceeded to the swing. ehhe =)

sorry
it's a little blur
i dont have a good camera okay
it's just my phone

the cook

the satisfied girlfriend

he deserved a kiss

i lubs u babes

that's it..... he's so gonna cook next time. he's so much of a better cook than i am. hahaha. but of course i wanna cook as well.




dear.. i know i didnt show much of a surprise that day. but i really appreciate every effort u've put in to make my day better. thanks so much darling sweetheart honey! =)




p.s: the sun came out and the wind stopped when we decided to leave. God really answered ur prayers huh? ehhehe. if not it'll definitely wont be a fun lunch. ahahaha


p.s i love u