dreamssss....

im starting to hate dreams. like really really hate dreams. it's either dreams which i try to wake up from but i cant. no matter how much strength i use, i still cant get myself up and out of the dream or u know how sometimes u keep thinking bout something soooo much, that u dream bout it? yeah... that's the other dream that i hate (unless i dream bout someting nice la. then that's another story. hahaha) everytime i get that dream, i'll wake up really sad and depressed. in the verge of crying. the wonder my thoughts could create such horrible dreams.

now u know how bad it is when i start thinking. like when my mind starts formulating and piling up all the nonsensical stuff on top of each other. yeapss... things get pretty bad. like really really bad. i've tried to stop myself from thinking before. telling my brains to shut up. but u know what i've realized? i can do everything in my power to stop myself from thinking.... but nothing will happen. unless i commit it all to God. unless i commit every emotion, every feeling, every thought to God. using God's strength to help me conquer the impossible

so starting from today.... commit everything to God. not only ur plans or future. but every thought, every emotion... capture everything that ur heart and mind is creating. commit it all to God. lay it all at His feet and admit that u cant do everything by urself. dont wait till u fall down, bruised knees, broken heart. do it at the beginning... that'll save u from all the unnecessary