lonely world

all my close friends have now become strangers. now i need to hear from other ppl about them. ppl who is not even close to them...knows more than me. can u believe it? i know friendships needs a 2-way thing. i know its partly my fault for not keeping in touch with them. but well, all i can do now is thank God that He made our paths crossed. now i pray that one day God will make our paths cross again. if its His will la. im very thankful and grateful that He made our paths crossed at least for a period of my teenage years. they encourage me to grow up in a God's way and not other. but just deep down inside i really wish and hope that we still remain close friends. but i guess its God's choice...whether He wants us to remain friends or not when we have changed paths. i know its hard to keep friendships..but i really wished that it didnt end so fast. at least we still meet up for birthdays. but still....its all soooo soooo sooooooooo different. why cant everything still remain the same? i mean our friendship and all. i could still remember everything that we have shared and the times that we've grown up together. imagine u see each other more often than anyone else and u see each other grow physically and spiritually matured. its like all of us took steps of faith together..hand-by-hand..heart-by-heart. and now..all of a sudden..everything has changed. no more the usual outings. no more the usual chit chats. no more the usual craps. no more the usual heart-to-heart conversations. no more seeing each other grow. no more the usual arguements with teacher or one another. no more backing up each other. no more encouraging each other. and the worse of all. no longer talk to or see each other. no moreeee! ughh! i think i shall stop here. this is making me more depressed when i start to remember everything that has passed by like a dream. it just zoom past