future

i really dont know what am i gonna do for my future. sigh. it all seemed planned out to me. mum talked me into doing montessori or something to do with early childhood education. so found out that segi was offering such course. went to check out the place with kevin today. oh my goodness. the campus is seriously good. it's....it's.....it's magnificient! it's so huge! unbelievable! i cant believe my eyes.

but sadly kota damansara campus dont offer the early childhood education. only the summit branch has it cuz of the low demands of the course. sigh. so i told my mum, when i reached home, bout my "short" little trip. then i told her that if i really wanna study early childhood education, i gotta go to the summit one. so she asked me to find another course that i would wanna take.

i did pre-u partly cuz of my low qualifications and also cuz of this new, huge campus here in kota damansara. but only to find that they wont be offering it here and not even considering to transfer the course over to the BIGGER campus in the near future. sigh.

i told kevin, when we were leaving segi... that God is really testing me. here, He gives me a college nearby that offers early childhood education but.......... it's not in this branch. i really dont know what to do. really dont know what to do in the future. sigh. i have no idea whatsoever.




on the other hand, i had a really fun time in the new campus. it is so so so so HUGE!

from the library that has 2 floors and 2 parts. one for the books and the other for ppl to sit
to the auditoriums
to the classrooms
to the comp lab filled with dell computers. flat screen dell monitors mind u
to the kinda sad, small cafeteria
to the swimming pool smack in the middle of the campus
to the huge reception area
to the tennis court
to the squash court
to the gym
to the sports place where there is badminton, basketball, and volleyball courts. not to forget table tennis

i stole this from kennysia.com cuz my picture was really really horrible

the reception area

the pool
it was bigger

the start of our campus invasion

off we went to watch how to be a pirate

and i got this!

kev and i thinks segi college really has a good environment to study. though it may be hot to walk around the campus. seriously.... it was really really hot to walk around that's why there for so little pictures taken. but sadly.... i dont think i'll be continue-ing my studies there. i doubt it. sigh. unless God has other plans

btw.....

pirates was great. though sometimes i dont really understand. guess i gotta be a pirate to understand. hahaa. and to those who has watched pirates.... or havent watch, u should wait for a little while for the credits to roll. there's a short continuation. kevin had a hunch that there would be somemore. so thank God we followed it and stayed for a while. by then, the cinema has cleared almost 80%. so only a few ppl managed to stay back and watch the last part.






p.s once again... a d40 would come in handy for days like this. sigh. (talks to self)if only i could get my hands on such powerful camera(talks to self)

"tying the knot" by susan warren

"There's a wreck offshore, about a century old. The story goes that the lighthouse drew the ship in, giving her hope in the middle of an October gale, and then suddenly, poof! The light vanished. The schooner sank just yards from the harbor," Sandra said.

Bitterness filled Anne's chest again. Wasn't that how life worked? When she thought she was safe in the middle of God's hand, He dropped her. Her warm knitted world unraveled, the guiding light snuffed. "That's a terrible story."

Sandra pointed at a white bungalow beside the lighthouse. "Yes, but that's not the end. The lighthouse keeper saw the light blow out and knew the ship was in trouble. He took his own whaler out in th middle of the gale, risking his life. Moments after the ship went down, he rescued the survivors. Not a soul perished." Sandra touched Anne's hand. "In the darkest moment, God's always there."

fun and risky day

hahaha. today began really great. went back to kepong to have my lovely, delicious yong tau foo mee. super super good.

mine

his
he was sick... poor thing
but no diff cuz we shared mcd's for lunch
haha

now it was my turn to bring kevin to the place that i grew up. felt weird going back there. felt like a stranger. ahhaha. went back to my old neighbourhood. so much has change there. the new owners of the houses that i used to stay in did some renovation to the house. my grandma's house has changed ALOT more than mine. more guard houses now. haha. and the park..... so much more things now. they have basketball and badminton court, and the usual stuffs. but didnt remember it being so huge.

passed by my primary school. yucks! it still looks so yucky. hehehe. no more field. now they built another building on top of the field. sheesh. anywaysss... then after a trip to the past, we came back to my house to watch movie... cuz jess had tuition till 11 so we had to make it after lunch. we watched heroes first cuz kevin hasnt watch the last episode and then we watched love wrecked. quite an idiotic show but it was a happy ending. i LOVE LOVE LOVE happy endings. hahaha. so after that. we left for jess's house and met up with jon there. guess what did we wanna do there...?

we played this...!
jess and i played it for the first time

wish i always get 6... haha

he had the black and cool army

i had the sweet yellow yellow dirty fellow ppl

he claimed the winning title even before we played


half of the board

the other half
jessica's army was the red
jon's the blue

guess who was the winner?????
MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!
muahahhahaa.. so happy!!!!
jess and i create some agreement. ahaha
thanks for keeping the agreement jess =)








this was my mission.....

conquer africa



AND.....




northern america

he was suppose to conquer asia and southern america i think
but at least he manage to conquer asia la
hahahaha

all in all.... it was a good game and a great day. had loads of fun playing risk. really wanna play somemore. hopefully we have more time. we took bout 2-3 hours for just one game. kevin predicted that we could at least play 2 games. but nooooooo... hahaha. we managed to play 1. i wanna play somemore i wanna play somemore! *chants*

dear.... when can we play somemore???? hehehehehe. then i can beat u again. haha. no laa... it was just beginner's luck la.... i know ur the BEST! =)



p.s the pics arent really good. wanted to make my pics look like it just came out from a d40. sadly it didnt *sigh*

a pleasant surprise

i've received some news that an unexpected, amazing, unbelievable, never been dreamt of, unimaginable, pleasant surprise that caught me off guard which made me dumbfounded. it was so unbelievable that i thought it was all a dream....


things has definitely been weirder.....


quite some time ago
*A asked *B to invite me for dinner.... but sadly, i just came back from leader's retreat. thus making me too tired to leave my house

few days or weeks later
*A asked *B to ta pau some spagetti, that A has cooked, for me.

later on
*A asked *B.... again.... to arrange transport for me so that i can go somewhere without any hassle

now....
*A asked *B... yet again... whether i want a shirt and that A would pay for me.


i have no idea why A became so nice to me. i seriously dont understand. but oh wells, God always does "wow!" things once in a while eh...? He always manage to surprise us with blessings and unexpected gifts and presents. i shouldnt be complaining bout this. i should be happy. heheh *grins*


*names changed for personal privacy and purposes

holidays

this weekend marks the start of my holidays. i have been WAITING for this day to come for years. hahaa. no la.. maybe since the day i started my classes la. ahhaa. but i only have 4 days to lepak and loiter and do nonsense (eventhough i've done alot) and enjoy then it'll be family camp then it'll be back to boring ol' schedule and classes. sheesh.


better enjoy my holidays cuz after this... i gotta pay attention in classes. i gotta stop procastinating. i gotta start being diligent in my studies. i gotta do way way better than my first sem. i have been on a holiday mood since the starting of my 2nd sem. which is right after my first sem exams. i guess the holiday mood gradually seeped in, casting a spell on me.


anyways.. time to go =)

bla bla bla

sheesh. feeling so geram



having....

emotions that
i cant seem to control

thoughts that
are n-e-v-e-r ending

i worry alot
i think alot
my mind is an endless and restless piece of art that God is still working on
but God spoke to me today
during prayer meeting
said that my future, dreams, and plans are all in His hands
learn to trust in Him
i dont have to worry bout tmr because God has planned it all out for me


God really knows what im going through
He really knows my thoughts
He really knows my emotions
He really knows my every being


God, i really cant take this anymore
pls give me the strength to face my problems
to face my giants
to face my very own goliath
i know i can never make it without u

flying time

ignore the nonsense title. i have no idea what made me put up such idiotic title. hahaha. but it's really true. around this time next month is our 1st anniversary. unbelievable.



i was looking at my old posts last night and one caught my eye *flashback*



it has been an unbelievable journey
truly it has
plenty ups and downs
plenty crazy and fighting moments
plenty laughters and tears


there are also times where i cant control my emotions
times where i cant control my thoughts
times where i cant control my temper
there are so many things that i can think of that could make me hate him
but there are also so many things that could make me love him more


i wish i could say that mostly we have happy and crazy times
i wish i could say that we dont fight so often
i wish i could say that we dont have any misunderstandings
i wish i could say that we dont have sad moments


but throughout this 11 months,
he has definitely been there for me
being my shoulder to cry and lean on
supporting me whenever i needed him to
scolding me whenever i misbehave
encouraging me to grow spiritually
holding my hand and walking with me through the smooth and rough patches of life



our journey has definitely been a really colorful one

since i didnt hug u just now....
i'll just hug u when i see u later babes =)





HAPPY 11 MONTHS MY DEAREST DARLING SWEETHEART HONEY BABY!

silly moments

remember i was complaining from my previous post...? saying that i dont have any new pictures...? hahaha. now i dont have to wait till the indoor camp for more pictures. i already have new ones. with my darling. i remember how i used to pursuade him to take pictures with me. it took alot out of me to force him into taking a picture with me. but now..... MUAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!! he has become one of my picture taking buddy. ahahah *grin* i have made him into a picture taking maniac. in fact, i didnt have to teach him silly faces.... he does it himself. ahaha. im so proud of him. ahahha.

okay little kids. time for a story....






once upon a time, there was this couple who was waiting for the boy's video to finish rendering. (if u dont know what is rendering, ask ur mummy and daddy okay?) so the boy and the girl was boredly sitting in kdu's comp lab finding for jokes online to entertain themselves. suddenly....!!! an oh-so-brilliant thought struck the girl's mind. remembering bout her post last night. bout not having any new pictures and being depressed over it. she asked the boy to take pictures with her. and there.... it began.... the journey of jaw gapping picture taking moments

at first, they were patiently waiting for the boy's video to finish rendering.
they began with really smiley and happy faces

look...
how patient the boy was

but slowly....
the girl was losing her patience

so they started to make faces to entertain themselves

at one point, the girl was considering whether or not to kill the boy for making her wait so long
her hand was almost strangling him
but the boy still found a reason to smile
how great is his love for her







FINALLY.........!!!!!



they turned and looked at the computer
it was down to 5 seconds
so they did a count down.....

look at how contented the girl was
the boy couldnt believe his eyes

the boy started to check his master piece
checking whether there's any faults




suddenly..........




and slowly.......




his master piece was showing some badly timed voice parts




he was killing himself on the inside for doing such silly mistakes
and only to realize it after an hour plus of pointless waiting

so the girl decided to cheer the boy up
decided to make silly faces to make him smile again

but he still wouldnt smile like he did before
he was frustrated and exasperated at the mistakes that he has done
and the girl became frustrated
she couldnt do anything to make him smile

all of a sudden, a word of wisdom struck the girl
like a lightbulb turning on in her head
she knows one thing that she can do to cheer him up
to make him smile like he did before

a kiss

and it really did worked...!


HE SMILED LIKE HE DID BEFORE!




HAPPY 11 MONTH DARLING! =)

no title

hmmm... havent been blogging for a while. there's nothing much to blog i guess. nothing comes to mind or nothing adventurous happening that causes me to have a mental note to blog it. i was thinking of pictures that i can post up. but........... sigh. sadly. no new pictures =( im depressed. dont have any nice or new pictures to post. awwww mannn...!!! im sad. no pics...? it cant beeeeeeeee. i want pics i want pics. oh well, hopefully i can get more pictures after this sat's indoor camp

the matthew and luke cg is gonna be having an indoor camp from friday night till sat evening. cant wait for a time of craziness, laughter, nonsense, and of course PICTURE TAKING!!!!! cant wait to smile till my mouth cramps up. ahhaha. emmm, i know i know. abit exaggerating. hahaha =) but till then..... gotta wait till something interesting happens that makes me wanna blog bout =)

in the mood for pichas

hmmmm... cant really think of nice and happy things to write bout. but i think my mood is getting better since last night. it has definitely perked up a lot after i watch one tree hill. i dont know why i didnt like watching that last time... and i dont know why i suddenly fell in love with it. hahaa. but i think it has definitely thought me things in life as i watch the show. it has taught me the consequences of my choices and how to stand up to my fears. not to back down and slowly fade away (which i love doing) but to stand up and face it and conquer my fears.


i have to admit that i have been running away from my problems. running away from the things that i dont have the courage to stare at face-2-face, eyeball-2-eyeball. having a battle in my mind and with myself is a daily routine. i would definitely not go a day without having a fight with myself.


since i dont have any nice or happy things to say. i shall do the obvious. whenever i look at pictures, i tend to have a smile on my face cuz i reminiscence of all the crazy, silly, so poh, nonsense times that we have

more pics from the retreat
hehehe

she loves squashing ppl
she cant literally squash her grapes. this is as far as she can go

we were cold
and we were waiting for our tong sui
there was so many ppl that's why we had to take away

muahahahhahahaahhahahaha!!!!
since she squashes us
we shall haunt her
hahahaha
*faint*

yian
the person that i slept with for 2 nights
hahahahaa
sounds so wrong

u know i love u right?
hehehe =)

ending this post with this lil cute girl
look at the way she smile
look at her pretty PINK top

p.s actually i have hw... but im too lazy and i dont know how to do. heheh =) im so gonna get it tmr

.......

I AM



feeling shitty....



uncontrollable feelings



how sucky....



blehs....



W-H-A-T-E-V-E-R

i love Y O U

i love Y O U best

i love Y O U most

i love Y O U high

i love Y O U low

i love Y O U deep

i love Y O U wide

i love Y O U

i love Y O U

i love Y O U this much

what should i do?

i have so many questions right now
things that i should choose
the choices that i should make

i remember there was once during discipleship class
cia ask us to think bout the choices we've made recently
what she said was true....
...."God gives us choices to make. He doesnt close all the doors and open only O-N-E door for u..."

should i make the choice based on convenience?
should i make the choice based on my mood?
should i make the choice based on finance?

when i asked my mum for money for camp and also for the retreat
........i had the usual answers
it made me regret on going for the retreat
made me regret on considering going for camp
and now i really dont know what i should do

it has been tough
making choices


sometimes i wonder
if ppl offer to pay for u
or pay some part of the amount for u
would u consider it as a blessing
or
say ...."aiya... 'mm ho yee see' laaaa."
then
u go home and ask God why God didnt bless u when u were facing financial difficulties

maybe blessings comes in different forms
and we dont know it
maybe it comes in a free meal or drink?
maybe it comes in a perfectly wrapped box?


it reminds me of the story bout
a man standing on top of the roof cuz of the flood
and he prays and ask God for help
then a boat comes by and ask the man whether he needs a ride or something
then he says noooo, im waiting for my God to help me
then another boat comes by again asking the man the same thing
and the man replies no, im waiting for my God to help
then i think the guy dies or something
and he goes up to heaven and ask God why didnt He sent help when the man asked Him to
God replied saying, "I did, I sent 2 boats to rescue u, but u didnt go on it"



i guess sometimes we expect something great, eye-opening, and mind-boggling kinda help from God but we'll never know in what way or what form that help comes


decided to make my post colorful cuz my day has been really colorful =) and i hope my days to come will be too =)

puppy!

i've got a cute lil puppy! awww mannn. it's so cute. it makes me smile looking at it. actually im not supposed to have anymore dogs. after this dog, my mum said that i will no longer have any doggies. cuz i dont like dog when it has grown big. i like to play with it when it's a puppy, then neglect it when it has grown. haaha. so therefore, no more doggie after this current one that i have...

but.....

it all changed when my mum's friend gave us this puppy. i couldnt let it go. and they usually say, that once u've named the puppy, u've already claimed it as ur's. ahhahaa. sooooo.... we named it cookie! =) wanted to name it pebbles but my dad said it was too hard to call. bahs *sweat* so we named it cookie. sheesh. oh wells. at least i have a cute lil puppy and also one that wing lian would love. hopefully he wont torture this one. ahahah.

cookie

sheeeeeeee...... so smallssssss =)
i like

he's only 2 months old

one thing good bout this puppy is that it will not grow much. it'll only grow a little longer and a little bigger. and that's it. just right for me. hahaha. that way i'll always get deceived that i have a dog that will always remain a puppy.

i've always wanted a dog that'll remain a puppy forever. have always wished that they'll never grow up and remain cute and small.

bahs

bah
ish
ugh
argh
*pulls hair*
*screams*

i dont wanna care
i bet u must be bored having this sentence repeated over and over again
i wish that nothing matters
nothing irritates me
nothing makes me jealous
nothing makes me angry
nothing makes me frustrated
nothing makes me exasperated



......"u shouldnt be so sensitive....."
it doesnt matter anymore
once u said that sentence....
i totally shut down
i regret on starting that convo
i regret on telling u how i feel
eventhough after what u said, u encouraged me to continue
but..................
just forget bout whatever i said
forget bout what i've brought up
just treat it as an irritating and annoying mozzie bugging u


whatever u feel, it's ur problem
and
whatever i feel, it's my problem
nobody needs to care bout each other's feelings
do whatever u want

go go go..........

G O!

i wish it was this easy. sigh

results....

actually, i've gotten almost all my results since last week or something but i refuse to accept it. i refuse refuse. except for the 2 A's la. heh heh =) okay fine... i know u guys wanna know my results. those who are reading. i know u are wondering how i did for my exams. whether or not i did good. whether i failed any? whether i had oh-my-goodness-i-cant-believe-how-well-u-did-for-
that-nonsense-subject marks. hahahahahaha. pls forgive me for being a little silly. but but but........ isnt it good being happy? *pouts*

okay la okay... i know ur waiting in suspense. waiting to know my results.

processing...
processing....
getting the results....
................................................................
................................................................

2 A's
1 B
1 C
1 marginal fail

dont ask me what the heck is marginal fail. i guess it's just a nice way of saying that u failed. ahhaaha. sigh. i have no comments bout my results la. hahaha. cuz right... ahem ahem. let me explain why did i get such marks.

1. i studied the day before every paper
2. i had accounts and math at the same day
3. thinking skills was hard, not enough time during the exam
   

so tell me how to study math and accounts laaa... these 2 subjects needs lots and lots and lots of memorizing. sigh. i know i know. i could have studied earlier right? ahhaha.. ahuh. hope i can do that for this new semester.

oh oh oh oh... i finally got my msian studies results. haha. whoever said that the paper was easy was seriously lying to me at my face with their eyes wide open staring at me. sheesh. it was really really hard okay??? i didnt understand a single thing that i read from the book. ishhh... i managed to obtain a wonderful and beautiful C for that paper. actually, i should be thanking God that i didnt fail it therefore i dont have to go through the boring msian studies ever again! i wonder how did u guys go through it throughout ur high school years. gosh! 'pui fook pui fook'

everytime during my msian studies class, i'll either be snooring, daydreaming, smsing, talking, doodling nonsense and by doing that im conciously killing trees that dies for my benefit so that i wont be bored looking at my boring lecturer who cant speak english well. so thank God i dont have to go through that again if not i'll be killing more and more trees.

T H E E N D!

have a great and wonderful day peeps! =)

h e a v e n

can i run away
into a land far far away
where worries does not exist
where nonsense does not have a part in the vocabulary
where there is no care on one's shoulders

when will the worrying stop?
when will the nonsense go away?
when will the cares stop coming?

can i run away and hide
is there a place with no burdens
can i always have the greener side of the field
is there any stop to this

i know a place like that
where all bad things end
no sadness
no worries
no death

all joy
all happYness
all smiles
all laughters

H E A V E N!

i love him this much

* keep holding on *

ur not alone
together we stand
i'll be by ur side, u know i'll take ur hand
when it gets cold
and it feels like the end
there's no place to go
u know i wont give in

keep holding on
cause u know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause u know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
there's nothing u can say
there's nothing u can do
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause u know we'll make it through, we'll make it through




im too lazy to type somemore of the lyrics of the song... as u all know, it's by avril lavigne. it's obvious why i chose to put this lyrics up. it's to remind myself and those who is reading this to keep holding on and never give up.

it's so me to quit. to give up. whenever things dont go my way or whenever things dont turn out the way i want it to be, i'll tend to give up right away. giving up easily. so a reminder.......

K E E P H O L D I N G O N !

i still love u anyway

this whole has been an emotional wreck week
ups and downs days
well, mostly down la
at least everything has been settled

my emotions has varied everyday
i would love to put all the blame on my hormone imbalance week of the month
but in the end...
i've gotta be responsible for the choices that i've made

i need God's strength daily to make the decisions that i know i should make
i need God's love daily to love at times when i dont have enough love
i need God's wisdom daily to know what to do

i've been unreasonable
i've been inconsiderate
i've been selfish
i've been stubborn
yes i admit it
i refuse to listen
i refuse to hear what he has to say

i thank God for putting him in my life
i thank God for letting us be together

but how much can u take from me?
how much can u love me?
how much till u give up?
will u give up on me?
will ur love slowly fade away?

i never want to reach the day when u say u give up on me
i never want to hurt u so much till u say that u dont love me anymore
or that u cant take it anymore

im happy that we've patched things up
happy that we've settled things
happy that we've talked things over

im learning each day to express my feelings
im learning each day to tell u how i feel
im learning each day to choose the right decisions
to make the right choices

i really do hope u'll bear with me through this time
as i much as i hope to bear with u through it
pray that we'll have the patience to learn from each other yeah?

im sorry for the things that i've said that has hurt u
im sorry for the things that i've done that has hurt u
i thank u for forgiving me for the things that i've done and said, dear!

i l o v e u! =)

classmates

this has been long overdue. just got the pictures today that's why =)

my classmates

jocelyn and mpho

kenny

down : tebby
up: joel
seee what i mean by saying that the botswana ppl are touchy?

after class. hehe

harpreet and timmy(timothy)
2 really nice guys. and funny too ahaha