cg outing

well well well... i havent been updating my blog. mainly cuz i was lazy. haah. and i was waiting for pictures la. bahs. i need to find time to go to andrew's house to raid his comp. haha. actually i had things on my mind to pen down. but it always happen at night. so ill dismiss it and leave it for monring. but guess what??? once i wake up. i totally forgot what i wanna write. i need to write it straight away. at the spur of the moment. hahaa

so anyways... wonder why im updating my blog? well.... we finished our cg at around...2? so then sent carmen and caryn to their aunt's house. then went home. it feels very weird that im free on a saturday afternoon. normally my saturday's are spent in church. and today im home... blogging. listening to music. finding stuff to do. with loads of time on my hands.

in esther's equation.....

free time = ample time for my mind to start wondering and thinking


oh gosh! i hate it when that happens seriously. therefore...... im here. blogging. doing something instead of letting my mind get the better of me. it's like i know the answers to my questions. i know that i shouldnt think bout.... dot dot dot.. it shall remain unknown. ugh! bahs!


so anyways... let's not talk bout my thoughts. cuz then it's like back to square one. haha. our cg lesson today was bout marriage. i was reminded of 1 Corinthians 13 : 4 - 8. i know i know. some of u might think... "*gasp* estherrr!!! how can u forget such a famous verse." but but but but........ sometimes things slip my mind u know. like me worship leading today. hahaa. if not for delz reminding me.... i would have went to grace's house nonchalantly.. kakaa. ooo.. by the way... we had the cg outing at grace's house.

it's not really an outing la. it's just a different thing than having it in church. it's different la. the atmospher everything.. is different. and we had like porridge, fruits, potato salad, cake... what else what else? cant remember la. hahaa. but i was stuffed. before i go on talking bout the food. let's come back to my main point. haha. 1 Corinthians 13 : 4 - 8



love never gives up
love cares for others more than self
love doesnt want what it doesnt have
love doesnt strut
doesnt have a swelled head
doesnt force itself on others
isnt always "me first"
doesnt fly off the handle
doesnt keep the score of the sin of others
doesnt revel when others grovel
takes pleasure in the flowering of truth
puts up with anything
trusts God always
always looks for the best
never looks back
but keeps going to the end
love never dies



when i read that verse. and when delz elaborated bout the verse. i was like thinking to myself. gosh! i like failed in almost every single part of it. myabe not ALL la. but most of it. seriously. does that mean i dont have love? oh noooooooooo.. but really la. we wouldnt know how to love until we experience and accept God's love. without His love........ i seriously dont know how am i gonna love other ppl. cuz as i experience and embrace God's love for me.... i find it easier to love other ppl. though sometimes it's hard la. not to say it's forever easy. bahs. hahaha.



i've learnt not to expect so much from other ppl. the higher ur expectations... the greater the fall. isit correct? bahs. whatever. lazy to think. ahhaa. sometimes u expect that certain someone to do things, to act this way, to behave like that, why cant he be more romantic, show me more love, spend more time with me, blablabla, etc etc.... like what all those romance movies show. but come on. that's like too close to perfection. maybe only 1 out of 10 ppl behave that way. furthermore, different ppl show love in different ways. everyone is human. and humans let u down. that's why never put ur hope in man....but in God.



by the way... i have pictures from today's cg outing. im too lazy to wait for pictures then update together. ill just update. then ill just randomly put pictures when i get them la. hahaa. tooo lazy di la.