thought bout it

*ahem ahem*


since i had a sleepover for cg on the outside. and since i have spare time on a saturday which is pretty unusual, i decided to blog bout my HK trip. unfortunately, after procrastinating and playing parking wars on facebook (u should try it), i've become too lazy to write bout my trip.


therefore, i shall leave the updating to another day when i feel the "umph" and the inspiration to update because there's alot of stuff which i wanna talk bout my trip. i just feel too lazy to write it now.


*at least i thought about it* hehe

humour

oh dear God
You have such a good sense of humour
but why cant i laugh?
i know that You have plans for me
how do i see the bigger picture?

i've learned from last night's sermon
but no, my stubborn heart does not want to do it
i want it my way
i want what i want


how can i be happy when i just want to cry?
whatever i want is limited

is going to church bad?
is going for retreats, camps bad?
if i no longer go to church, u'll be sad
if i go to church, u complain
what do u want me to do?

am i going clubbing?
am i staying out late every night?
am i doing wrong things?
no
i'm doing none of the above
but why do u make me feel like i'm doing worse than those?

sometimes i think maybe i should turn the other way
would that make u feel better?
if i drink, club, do drugs, come home the next morning
would that make u feel better?


i have nothing else to say

thankful

i've been back for 3 days di. but yet i have no desire whatsoever to blog bout my trip to HK. when i came back, it all felt kinda surreal. like i was just dreaming that i went to HK. i didnt feel like i went at all. the days seem to pass really fast but yet not fast enough.


i will blog bout my trip soon because i'm still not feeling too well. having really bad headache


once i stepped onto the plane, i knew. my stomach was uneasy, my brains was trying to tell me something, everything just didnt felt right. we sat a smaller plane back home. so in the economy class there were only 2 toilets. imagine how small was it. yet it was somewhat packed. once the plane reached the cruising stage and the seat belt lights were off-ed, i knew i had to go. i waited a few seconds for the toilet and once i went in, everything that i've eaten for dinner rushed out. the smell that the toilet had, caused more of the undigested food to come out. oh boy, i've never vomitted for a million years. it happened bout 3-4 times on the plane. the toilet was my friend by the end of the ride. not only did it come out from my mouth but it came out from my back as well. i know i know. sorry. too much information


came back home and every 2 hours i woke up to do the same routine. i've never been so acquainted with my toilet until now. my stomach was scolding me for being so foolish to eat those wan tan in HK. i never got the last of it till morning came. i woke up at bout 11 something and kevin said he'll come to see me. instead of going to wash up, i fell back into deep sleep. when he came, i had a slight fever. i was quite hot after we were done watching meet the spartans. stupid show. so my dad ask me to drink some tonic water.


the doctor that he never gotten to be came out once i gave him the green light to feed me the horrible drink. this is my first time being so sick ever since i've gotten together with him. he was a darling. he treated me like a baby, making the tissue look like a bip. after i drank a few sips, he'll drink a gulp. too bad no pictures. but at least i can remember it =) i'm really thankful and grateful that i have him to take care of me. make sure u take care of me like that even after we get married arrrr.

thanks darling!

i really appreciate it

HONG KONG here i comeeeeee....!

*short post*
i'm leaving for HK in about 9 hours. the past few days i've been spending every given time that i have with kevin. of course i wish that i have the whole day... but sadly i was working or am still working till the first week of april. i dont think i'll continue on unless li teng and guys continues. i have not pack anything whatsoever up till today. spend some more quality time with kevin for a while, we hugged each other so tightly like we're not gonna see each other for another year or more then he left so that i can pack. it was a fast pack cuz we're gonna go there to shop anyway. so need more space for MORE new clothes!


i dont know why i still dont feel excited bout going for the trip. maybe cuz i'm feeling sad that i'm going away at a time where there's loads of church events and without kevin. maybe tmr when i wake up i'll feel the excitement. boarding the plan and stuff still feels surreal to me.


anyway, cant' write much. gotta go sleep. have to wake up bout 5 something in the morning cuz we gotta be at the airport at 7am =)

I'M GONNA MISS YOU BABY!

T.G.I.F

OH MY GOODNESS
OH MY GOODNESS
OH MY GOODNESS



can u feel my excitement? TMR IS FRIDAY! muahahahah! amazingly time passed quite fast this week. all in all, this week was quite mundane. nothing much has changed except the fact that i found out bout someone in my office who read my blog. better be careful with what i say from now on.


let me tell u what has my life been ever since i started work



wake up
do QT
brush teeth
bath
change
stuff jacket and bottle into my bag
leave house
reach office
on computer & take out my necessities and put it on my table
log into lotus & sametime & meebo
open my work stuff
start doing work
multi-task between chatting and work (mostly work. dont worry ching yen. i'm doing my work)
lunch
work
tea break
work
countdown till work ends with li teng
off computer & pack stuff
go home
change
eat dinner
watch abit of tv
read blogs/do stuff online (yes, computer again!)
brush teeth
sleep

then the next day... same thing all over again.

this is my table

look at my eyes la
looks like going to close anytime soon
haha

IMPORTANT!!!!!

tmr is friday friday friday friday friday friday friday!!!
casual friday
free breakfast
get to spend time with the boyfriend
weekend!
yay yay yay!




btw, if ur wondering whether i'm sick of choc-o-cino yet.... yes! i'm terribly sick of it. haha.




oh oh oh... before i forget
instead of going to australia, i'm gonna go hong kong from the 19th-23rd march. yes, i know i know. dont make me feel guiltier than i already am. i'm gonna miss a whole lot of stuff:-


all day prayer
good friday
yf easter party
easter service
kevin


sigh. don't tell me the obvious. nothing i've never heard before. i'm not thrilled bout going either but what to do. the tickets has been bought. the accomodation has been set. my father is quite thrilled bout going again. he kept talking to me bout where i wanna go. he's done research online and he even bought a book.

random nonsense

i have loads to write bout my work. where do i start. i actually wanted to post some random pictures but decided on adding more to this post. let's seee.....


the first day of my work was quite a fun one. as i stepped out of the lift, i was thinking of what should i do cuz i arrived at bout 10 mins earlier. but luckily, as i was walking, i heard yih ren talking really loud from behind and i knew i heard his voice from somewhere. so i turned around and saw them. *phew* *lets out breath* finally. my "savior's" haha.

walked in and li teng said she'll call ching yen for me. the quite scary but nice interviewer i meet the last time. she directed me into the room and i waited and waited. then she came back in and brought me newspaper as well as the contract that i needed to sign. u seee... frost & sullivan is a global growth consulting company (what i always hear when winson calls ppl to do some telephone interview) and apparently it's a huge & famous company. that's why need contract la.

then she went to check whether my desk was ready and she came back in and said she'll give me a tour of the place. which wasn't really big. it's long la. narrow & long. the pantry is super small and it looks as if they tried to stuff the whole place with as much tables, chairs, and dividers as they possible can. they have another block which is more spacious and new.

then i sat next to the IT guy who is preparing my computer for me. which took like a million years. it was already 9.30 okay. so i waited and waited..........again. and FINALLY *phew* i got my table. which isn't very HUGE. note: stuffing the place crazy? dont worry. will take a picture.... soon! haha so anyway, i sat there. trying to figure out how to use lotus 7. they have their own "msn messenger" it's called SAMETIME. we can PING a.k.a message ppl in the office bout anything or nothing at all. we use this to chat. haha. and also i use it to ask my boss bout work stuff la. duhhhhhhhh.

then came my boss, he asked me to open the email (like as if i know how to use lotus) so i was super blur. simply clicking here and there. then he asked me to open the website. i opened it and nothing appeared. i couldn't see anything other than the frame of the table where the information is suppose to be in. so he asked me to wait, he'll come back. but he didnt come back at all! note: it was already 10....!!! so i asked winson bout SAMETIME and how do i operate it. but it wasn't working as well. awwwww mannn. i was beginning to have a feeling that the 1st day of my work is gonna be damn sucky. sigh. he helped me to "ping" the IT guy, eric, and minutes later eric came and fix everything.

at bout 10.30, everything wrong bout my computer was fixed *phew* please don't tell me it's the user problem (but i really think it is. my computer has been really weird for the past 2 days). so since my boss hasn't come back, i decided to give SAMETIME a try. chatted and chatted and they said that i have the best place in the whole company cuz my table is at the back of the office and my back is facing the wall. meaning i can do ANYTHING!!! but u see.. im so innocent & i don't dare to do any nonsense on my first day, i only dared to go on facebook and check my mails and.... oh oh... not to forget, i went to meebo as well to chat on msn.

at 11 plus, my boss finally came back to explain to me bout my job. at that time, i was surfing the net and busy chatting away. i was so freaked out to see him suddenly appear okay. sheesh. from then on, i was multitasking *evil grin* so that was my first day... but after lunch, i had this really bad migraine that made me slow down on my work. made me feel like puking. i didnt really feel too well. sigh

so yesterday was casual friday and seriously, some ppl really took it too far. they wore REALLY REALLY casually. like huge t-shirt, 3 quarters, and aunty shoes for example. and on fridays, we have free breakfast *yum yum* really good food. haha. i had to email my boss the work that i did the day before and after few hours, he came back to me and asked me how did i do my work cuz it's really really simple. i just copy and paste countries name and numbers from a website to an excel spreadsheet. then he said that i needed to speed up on my work cuz i have 100 countries more and this is only my first. bahs!

i'll be ready on monday. equipped with my earphones, hard disk filled with a million songs, panadol, and jacket. haha

in ktz, 1u
it's more expensive there

his edison smile
he can do better one

this is a must have in my office
CHOC-O-CINO
i've talked bout this before *click*

i was SO happy when li teng showed me the drinks machine. hahah. it even took away some of the pain from the migraine. i have this drink everyday at bout 3-4pm and we steal the cup first. okay let me explain why. actually she helps me to steal it la. we can only use the cups in the picture above and there's only a limited amount of it. the kakak will only wash it once in a while. so just in case i dont have a cup to use, we take it and put it on my desk *grin* aren't we smart? but next time we should take a spoon as well. haha. dont dare to drink it in the morning. in case i get stomach ache. anyway, time to sleep now. don't expect a frequent update cuz i have a feeling that i'll be too tired and too lazy to post alot during the weekdays. cheh wah. say until like i have alot of readers. ahahaha!

work

now i understand what delicia said. bout kevin working next time. when all he wants to do when he comes home is just sit and stare into space. that's what i feel like doing now. all through work today, i was thinking bout what im gonna write when i came home. but now all i feel like doing is sleep. why....? cuz i had this really really BAD headache the whole day. now still have. sigh. kevin wanted to know all bout my day but i really really dont feel like talking. i feel so drained out. thank God tmr is casual friday. dont have to worry much bout formal clothes. i'll go get it once my work ends. pray for me. for good health. really dont feel well cuz i have not been sleeping properly.

job

i've gotten the job at frost & sullivan. when i heard it the first time, kevin and i was laughing our heads off. it reminded me of monsters inc. my mum kept forcing me to ask for some job there cuz she said it's a very famous and good company. finally she got her wish...... this is gonna be my first real temp job at a office. kevin said my days at evelyn's old office (can't remember how to spell the company's name.. hehe. hence, "evelyn's old office") is not considered as a temp job. said that i didnt feel the horror of dreadful early morning's and weariness when i get home from work.



somehow, it doesn't seem right
feels like i should have taken the kindergarten job instead
feels like im betraying myself

i don't know how he does it
choosing job over spending time with me
i couldn't do what he did but forced to
im dreading the day when my work starts
btw, im starting on thursday


suddenly i feel like my "holiday" is coming to an end
my days of free flowing is over
im gonna laugh at him when his class suddenly cancels or ends early and he has no where else to go but home *evil grin*
i guess i got so used to spending almost everyday with him that im not ready to stop doing all that
only 2 good things that would come out of this job


money
new formal clothes!
SHOPPING TOMORROW!


i know one day this would have to happen
no matter what i do to stop it
one day we are gonna go out to the working world
with not much time spent together besides after work and weekends
am i ready for that?
noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...! of course not!
im not even ready to be TWENTY this year
imagine 2.0.
without the word TEEN behind it.....!



sorry... going a little crazy. hate it when something in my life suddenly changes. it's like ur driving halfway and out comes a child and ur car starts reeling down the cliff

undo

Rush of Fools - Undo

i've been here before, now here i am again
standing at the door, praying You'll let me back in
to label me a prodigal would be
only scratching the surface of who i've been known to be

[chorus:]
turn me around pick me up
undo what i've become
bring me back to the place
of forgiveness and grace
i need You, need Your help
i can't do this myself
You're the only one who can undo
what i've become

i focused on the score, but i could never win
trying to ignore, a life of hiding my sin
to label me a hypocrite would be
only scratching the surface of who i've known to be

[chorus]

make every step lead me back to
the sovereign way that You

[chorus]





i love love love LOVE this song
the first time i heard this was in glad sounds subang with kevin
it was in this box thing where u can press different songs to hear from
u can even watch a short video clip of their songs


we instantly fell in love with this song


the singer, not bad looking, haha
the tune, catchy and makes u wanna sing along
the lyrics, meaningful
it's just a really nice nice song
have yet to check out their album =)




i wish i could undo some of the stuff that i've done or said
undo who i've become recently
not gonna go into detail
but im not tooooooooooooooo happy with who i am right now



well, what can i say, im still work in progress by God
im not using that as an excuse of who i've become
not now, not ever
just saying cuz i believe that one day
i'll become a better person than i am today
one with a bigger heart to love the unlovable
one with a bigger smile to make people feel welcomed
one with a bigger faith to encourage people around





hope u enjoyed watching it! =)