start of something new

living in my own world
didnt understand
that anything can happen
when u take a chance

i never believed
in what i couldnt see
i never opened my heart
to all the possibilities

i know
that something has changed
never felt this way
and right here tonight
this could be the

start of something new
it feels so right
to be here with u
and now, looking in ur eyes
i feel in my heart
the start of something new

now who'd ever thought that
we'd both be here tonight
the world looks so much brighter
oh, with u by my side

i know that something has changed
never felt this way
i know it's for real
this could be the

start of something new
it feels so right to be here with u
and now...looking in ur eyes
i feel in my heart
the start of something new

i never knew it could happen
till it happened to me
i didnt know it before
but now it's easy to see





this is the song to the high school musical. the starting when troy and gabriella met each other. WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! the songs and movie is soooooooooo darn niceee.. if u guys missed it.... pls find out when's the replay or go download and watch it.. SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER NICEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha..


and this song is for me and someone also la. i never thought it could happen.. until it happened!!!! hahaha.

updatessss

hmmmm.. well.. long time since i've updated. im either busy watching oc or talking/smsing on the phone. ahahha.


ughhhh.. this week is my last week at school. i keep praying that this week would be the best week of all. so that i can leave my beloved friends. it's really hard la. leaving them. all of them keep asking me what am i gonna do after i leave school. and honestly...... i dont know. thoughts of courses are like currently at the back of my mind right now. i only think of which course im interested in when im like not doing anything? haha. im like trying not to think bout it. sighhhhh.. i dont know la.




i really dont wanna leave my friends. i guess im like stuck in the middle? i have to leave school. cuz im old di laaaa.. and it's time for me to move on my studies. but at the same time. i dont wanna leave school. leave my friends... my wonderful teacher.. that i've grown to be somehow attached to this few years. my teacher is a lady ok.


let me tell u how i got close to my teacher. i know many times u'll hear that this teacher sucks this teacher whatever. but not my teacher.... i know sometimes i might complain bout her. no one's perfect.. im not saying only me... but her tooo. well... she came into my school cuz my center and her center got joined together. so i heard loads of story bout her. being really strict and clean freak and all. well...she is la. but not as bad as told.


so in the beginning i didnt want to go to her. didnt even want to look at her or even engage in a conversation.. but after a few months or so... my teacher that im under.. left.. so guess who i was under? her. so i have no choice but to talk to her right? hahaha. so then small talk became a talk that could last throughout the whole schooling time. it's like i can share anything with her and she'll keep it. but she wont keep things that needs to be settled and all la.


so then we started going out for dinner with a few other fellow students. and she's really fun to be with. really funny and all. knows how to joke and make silly remarks. sighhh.. and my friends??? well.. there's nothing much to be explained. it's funny how sometimes u get close to a person or a bunch of ppl. did u ever wonder? like it's soooo coool. like u've been in the same class for like 1-2 years. but all of a sudden. u get close to them. it's like awesome. it's funny how God works. how He bring friends into ur life.





hmmm.. alot has been happening. things that i've never expected. haha. well... cant explain much here. soon la. when everything has calmed down and settled? hahaa. =) i know i know. ur like dying of curiousity now huh. some of u know. some of u dont. well... be patient. and sooner or later.... those who see me often.... would know. hehehe. ill tell laa... one day.......... hehe.

details details details

well well well. finally i manage to put o.c aside to update on my posts. hahaa. i better type fast so that i can return to it. hahaa. joking joking. i must mention all the details so that i can give ppl some credit. ahhaa

well.. i've promised u guys some details on my bday. actually.... more like i wanna tell u guys what happened. hahaa. cuz it's seriously damn NICE and SWEET of them to do it for meeeee!!! goshhh!! cant believe that they went through all the trouble to do it for me.



hmmmm.. i woke up late on that day. cuz it was raining. and i wassss soooooooooo tempted to stay in bed the whole day. but i guess jeremy and the rest would kill me. cuz they like planned so much stuff for me.

so i got ready and went to school. prepared myself for whatever they have planned for me. hahaa. cuz justin kept saying that he's gonna have fun torturing me and all. so i was kinda scared u know. wondering what they would do for me.


so then in the morning we had to go through a period of listening to my teacher complain bout us. bout the class behaving badly and all. so the mood wasnt that nice. until jeremy passed me this paper saying that i've signed up for a treasure hunt. and im like nooooooooooo i didnt. hahaha. but oh well. gotta do what they ask me to. so went for break and drank some weird drink then they handed me a clue to where i can find my pressie. well....the first one took a while. cuz i didnt know where they would hide it. hahaa.


so to cut the long story short. u know.. before u guys fall asleep and before some of u complain that it's a really long post. basically i had to do like 6 tasks. and after every task is done.... ill have to go find my pressie. pretty interesting huh. i really enjoyed it la. seriously. haha. never regretted signing up for a treasure hunt which i didnt even signed up for. ahhaa.




so wanna know what i got?

• i have 2 bracelet
• a key chain that has a PINK pig with small lil wings on it
• a PINK and purple doggie.. really soft
  
• a PINK piggie.. really cute and soft
• a colored water thingy. dont know what u call it. haha
• and last but not least......... PINK RACQUETTT!!! well.. actually the racquet is not really pink.. it's silverish red kinda.. but the string and the grip is pink!!! wooo hooo.. and a maroon bag to go with it.
• pajamas. hahahaa. really really nice =)

so mostly all my gift were PINK in color. then i have a new phone too... n70. and a piggie glow-in-the-dark wrist support. something which i've always wanted to buy... but didnt know why i didnt get it. ahaha. 2 pom pom like hairbands. a necklace. and a pair of REALLY REALLY nice earrings.



i really really love the pressies. and of course the treasure hunt. seriously i dont know what to say. thank u is not enough for what they have done for me. after all that.... it has made it harder to leave school now. i've never thought that leaving school was this hard. it's like seriously..... aw mann.. the days are passing so fast! and i gotta get out by the end of this month. which is like next weekkkk!!!!


just the thought of leaving them is really really painful and hard. ugh! ok ok. im not gonna repeat my other post that i wrote last time. but seriously... i dont even wanna think bout leaving school. esp. after my bday. awww mann.. they really did alot alot for meeeee.. bought me sooooooo many pressies.





thanks so much jeremy, justin, nick, mz, shana, joy, adam, junior, sean, carolyn, jocelyn, jer mayn, zane, and julian. i will never ever know how to repay u guys for what u guys did for meeeeee!!! hmmmm.. actually.... maybe i will if i have like alot of money next time or something. then i can bless u guys with something eh. ahahha. thanks so much for creating the funny and fun treasure hunt! =)

a pic of what i got! =)

my bday!

well.. alot of stuff happened today. unforgettable, memorable stuff. stuff that ill always remember in my life.





i would like to say more... but im kinda exhausted. considering i didnt get much sleep last night. so im kinda tired right now. feel like lying on my comfortable bed and just reading a book. long time since i've done that. ahaha. so i guess after this post. im gonna do that for a while. cuz i wanna wake up early tmr. this morning i couldnt wake up at all. mainly cuz of the rain. gosh! it's like lullaby-ing me to sleep. ahaha. until i saw the time was 8.30 then i was like shocked cuz i gotta get ready for school. and since it's raining and all. it'll take some time to reach school.






so that's why.. i shall explain further bout my day tmr. as for now.... im just gonna read my book and sleep. ahhaa. how nicee.. wonderful.. great thing to end my bday. hahaa.


ohhhh.. and just now... when it was 8.06 pm or should i say 20:06.. it's like once in a while kinda thing. and it happened on my bday. it was 2006 (20th june) 2006 (year) 20:06 (time) cool huh? joanne told me that. then i was like shocked. cuz it's like soooooo cooolllll!!!! hahahahahaha.. ok ok.. calming down now. lol. *breathe in breathe out* hahaha





once againnnn...........




THANKS SO MUCH U GUYSSSSS!!!!

WHO MADE MY BDAY SUCH A SPECIAL DAYYYYYYY!!!!

ILL NEVER FORGET WHAT U GUYS HAVE DONE FOR MEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

* jessica & i *

* mich & delz *

*delz & i * love u

* gideon! cousin's baby! sooo CUTEEEE!!! *

* michie & i *

happenings

well.. today is kim's bday.. sooooo.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIMMMMMM!!!!!






me and my old school friends had a party on friday night. we had an early celebration for me and kim's bday.. kim and i always celebrate our bday together. cuz we're only a day apart. cool huh. and she always say that she's smarter than me cuz she's a day older. *faint-ed* hahahaa.


well.. we wanted to have a nice dress up dinner. but i guess cuz our budget per person is too lil and we didnt have much time to plan properly. we ended up having steamboat in teck meng's house and movie in 1u after that. but since the night movies is only 9 and 12. we had to watch the 9 something one. so we had dinner around 8 something. which felt like a few minutes. then we had to pause everything. like literally pause everything. we left all the food on the table. left the lights and fan on. of course we off the aircond. and of course the maid was home. then off we went to watch movie. the movie ended around 11 something. then we went back to teck meng's house to continue eating and cut cake. a cake which kim and i bought. ahahhaa. it's really funny when we were deciding on what to write on the cake. then kim came out with "we love u 2 hot chicks". but later during the continuation dinner(more like supper).. before we brought out the cake. teck meng were asking the guys what they thought we wrote on the cake. then ben said we bought the cake. then i was like aww mannnnn.. we should have wrote that. that would be really funny.. the 2 birthday girls had to buy their own cake. haha. never heard nor seen before. till that day. ahahahah. but oh well.. didnt mind =)


was suppose to be home around 11 but beg and asked my mum whether i can extend my curfew. so my curfew was at 1. but after all the eating and cutting cake and crapping around. i ended up going home around 2. but i gotta thank God that no matter what. my mum still has grace and she didnt even ground me. i mean.... i've never gotten grounded before. not like i wanna try or anything. but i thank God la. that she didnt do anything to punish me.






and then i had dinner tonight with my family and a new member. ahhaa. joanne. my bro's new girlfriend. im still getting to know her. she's a really nice person to know. well... like i said.. still getting to know her. quite hard now a days cuz wing lian is not staying with me anymore. so i seldom get to see or talk to him. sigh. oh wells. nothing much i can do bout that. just gotta accept the fact. but the dinner was really great. not talking bout the food. but the time spent with my family.



and today my friends bought 2 cakes for me and shana.. her bday was on sat. and awwww mannn.. i ate sooooo many cakes for my bday this year.. i had 3 cakes already. oh gosh! wanna faint. ahhaa. and sigh.. today was a really horrible day. my teacher was agitated the whole day. so in the end the class mood was really down. and horrible. and the weather was sooo gloomy and all. then my friend was like saying.. the weather really shows the mood of the classroom. sighhh. i hope my teacher feels better tmr. really dont know how to apologize to her. argh.


i think i need to continue my diet.. like start all over again. putting so much weight with all the eating out and all the cakes. *bleh* feel sooooo fat now.. ahhahaa. but im still happy with what my friends and family had and has and is planning to do for me. really really grateful.





THANKSSSS SOOOOO MUCHHHHHH!!!!! =)

kim & i bought it. it says we love u 2 hot chicks! i know i know. damn perasan. ahha.

marble cheese cake. chosen by joanne =) thanks!

dont have the picture of the other 2 cakes bought for me and shana. cuz we were in school. and we didnt have cameras and our phones were handed in to our teachers. so we didnt have any phone with us. if not i would have taken picture of it. seriously. wanna know why??? hahahaa.. cuz they bought the cake yesterday. which was father's day. so the ppl writing it thought it was for their father. so they wrote happy father's day on the cake. but it was suppose to be for me and shana. hahahaha. it was seriously so funny man. ahahhaa.



well.. secret recipe had alot of business this few days. cuz all the cakes that i ate was from there. *faint-ed* ahhaha. i think when i see anymore cakes... ill puke. ahhaa. too much cake in a few days. ugh! hmmmmm.. i wonder if anyone really knew what cake i love. i love a kind of cake since i was really young. would always buy it for my birthday. but not sure whether they still have it anot. long time since i have that cake. i think ever since my grandpa passed away. i think la. cant remember the last time i had that kinda cake though. ahha.

laziness

haha.. im abit lazy to update my blog.. nothing much to update. besides the fact that my bday is coming round the corner.. and i dont feel anything bout it. usually i would be like so excited and all. but this year.......... i dont feel anything. aw man. hahaa. but one thing that im excited about is bout what my friend's and family has planned for me. my friends were planning something this few days in school. like planning something to do for me. but u know.. the naughty me kept interrupting. and trying to take a peek at what they were writing and talking bout. ahahah. im so bad right. i think i shall leave them alone and let them plan something nice for me. hahaha.




i liked what aunty see wei said last sunday. before she started the praise & worship. she said....







good - God = 0
zero.. nada.. nil.. kosong..






and it really hit me la.



that really... everything without God... eventhough it may seem good to u.. without God.. it's really nothing.




hope that u guys would realize it like me. =)

sushi making on 31st may

hehe.. wondering why am i only posting this pics up now? well.. i managed to get the full one.. i only had a few of it.. and most of it was with claire.. so i waited for her to send to me lo. dont want to put bits and pieces..

on the 31st of may... we went to grace's house to make sushi. delz wasnt there cuz she went to penang for a trip with ed and his family. that day was really fun. making sushi and taking tons of silly pictures. hahaa.

me & letitia & vanessa

the food that we made =) yess yess.. weeeeeee

the ppl who went
top left : grace, harmony and me
bottom left : anu, claire, letitia, geraldine, vanessa, and mich

no idea why we did this. but mich wanted to do it. oh wells

time fliesss

woahhh.. i cant believe thisss.. now it's like the 2nd week of june. it's sooo fasttt.. aww mann.. why must time pass so fast everytime ur having fun..


hmmm.. well.. on the 3rd-6th juneee... my church had family camp in gentings. and it was really fun. though it passed by sooooo FAST! it like ZOOOM past so so fast. haha. so anyway... camp was great la. i missed going to hong kong with my parents and wing lian. but oh well. hong kong will always be there but the experience in camp will ALWAYS ALWAYS be different. and i still get clothes and stuff from there even if i didnt go. so oh wells. haha.

i felt this camp was abit different than the rest. i think this camp is not like to fill up fuel again. not like a pit stop like my many other camps. but this camp was just time away with God. without anything else in the world. but God, family, and friends. it was great time spent. will certainly NEVER regret it. gotten to know the younger girls more. manage to be better friends.



and i've been going out alot with delz and mich. been spending lots of quality time with them. ahhaa. and especially delz. i've been staying over in her house this month more than many years combined together. ahha. esp. before camp... i stayed over a night before cuz i was suppose to follow them up to genting. so i slept with her for 4 nights all together. ahaha. and goshhh! it certainly has gotten us closer. ahha. and now i miss her everynight cuz i dont hear this person telling me that she cant find a comfortable spot and that her pillow is so low. hahaa. my nights are really quiet now. ahhaa.

pics during camp

* delz and i *

* playing uno in our VERY nice and lovely room *

* nelson and i *

* kai cheh and i *

leaving school...

well.. im leaving school soon. actually i wanted to leave by march. but this year was a different year. let me explain why so.




i started homeschooling when i was like 13. i went to GRC. grace resource center. it was in ss4 then. there i met alot of friends that helped me shape and change my thinking. we all gotten really close and all.

this is a pic of them. some were added in through the years and some are the guys gf's.

but.... when i was around 16... the school's management had some problem. so both the 2 pastors(Ps. Henry and Ps. Kevin) separated. and started their own center's.. so GRC(Ps. Henry) shifted back to grace church pj. and the other pastor's center took over the ss4 branch. and alot of ppl said the grace one wasnt that good blablabla. so my mum decided to put me in Ps. Kevin's school cuz that's the so-called good one la..

so i had to leave my friends. friends that i treasured the most. it wasnt easy for me cuz then i had to start over again and get new friends. but thank God some friends from grace went to Ps. Kevin's center too. so it wasnt THAT bad la.. but still. ahaha. not as before lo




so when i went to the new center.. i really wondered whether i can find friends like my old center's friends. friends that impacts my life. friends that i could make an impact on. friends that can help me be a better person and all. and whether i can make a difference in their life.




so that's why i said this year was different. cuz it took me few years to find good friend's here in this center.. and this year was it.. we all gotten really close and all. doing things together and all. and now im not saying that i manage to find ppl who could replace my old school friend's. no one can ever replace them. haha.



but once again... it happened again. once i get close to them.. i had to leave. my ketua biri biri a.k.a delz was telling me that i should get my lazy bum outta school and get myself in college.. cuz im 18 this year and im already late cuz ppl my age are already in coll. and i know i should do that.


but im still really reluctant to leave. cuz this is the 2nd time that happen. im not ready to leave my current friends and start anew again. it's like whenever i get close to a bunch of ppl. whenever im having the fun of my life. i have to leave and move on in life.




sigh. i guess it's just the phase of life. where u get to cross paths with some ppl. then trust in God again for us to cross paths again.





i was talking to my friend last night. and he was telling me not to leave school so fast. he said that everyone agrees that once i leave, they'll miss me and all. i really do hope that i've made a certain impact in their lives. i never knew that they would be so sad if i left school. ahah. like sometimes i wonder if im ever not in a certain place.. would anyone notice. some of them were telling me not to leave so early. and some of them always tell me that without me... there's no fun. hahaa. sighhh.. well.. i guess once again. it's a phase of life. u gotta move on. and grow up. no matter how much u wish u could remain and play everyday.... one day.. u gotta move on.






it's sad to leave my friends. sad to leave the only common point we have.. and that is school. like now.. me and my grace friends.. we're not as close as last time. cuz we dont have the common point... school. cuz u spend like what 6 hour plus in school. 5 days a week. it's like u see them more than ever.. u spend more time with friends in school. and once u leave that common point. it takes effort and time to meet up again.

fat fat fat and nothing but fat

goshhhhh.. i know i know im fat already. some ppl dont have to remind me over and over again that im F A T !!!!


it's like they think that im blind or something. it's like they think that i dont notice that im fat myself. and they have to keep rubbing it in my face over and over again. non stop. goshhhh!! i really feel like shouting at themm..


i didnt like tell God to create me this way.. im just born this way. i know i know. now a days there's lots of slimming stuff and exercise. blablabla.. goshhhhh. dont think i've never tried any of those.. like slimming stuff and exercise. i do them ok.. but all the fats just doesnt go off as easy as some ppl.


and i think it's the media's fault. it's like brainwashing everyone in the world that skinny is G R E A T !!! it's like if u slim or fat.. it's a no no.. u have to be skinny all over.. ur face, body, and legs should only show the bones.


ughhhh.. sometimes i wonder why cant fat be the new look

but i guess.... that'll never happen. i think if it happens right.. THE WHOLE WORLDDDDD WILL TURN PINKKKK!!!!!!





and i wanna say thank u to those ppl who adviced me and told me that they understand how i felt bout my last post. really thank God that He sent u guys to comfort and advice me. really appreciate it. hehe =)