feelings

do u care bout other ppl alot but they dont care bout u at all?
do u treat other ppl like ur own family but they treat u like shit?
do u put them first(besides God) but they put u last in their list?
do u wake up and feel like there's no meaning to it?
do u do things and its all so mundane?
do u feel like there's any difference?
do u show concern and care but they return it with something harsh?
do u ever feel so tired with life? with the way ppl treat u?
do u feel like u dont know anyone anymore?
do u feel like everything's a mess? and u dont know what to do anymore?
do u know the feeling of putting a happy face but deep inside ur hurting so badly?
do u know the feeling of being treated like shit by ppl who are called ur friends or worse.."sisters"?
do u know the feeling of not having anyone to turn to?

have u ever felt like ur heart hurts and tears run down ur cheek without even knowing why?
have u ever loved someone but that person doesnt return ur love? but instead returned it with harshness?
have u ever looked around and ask urself why ur here? at ur house.. in ur family.. doing the stuffs that u usually do
have u ever asked urself.. "what's the point of doing this?"
have u ever asked urself.. "what's the point of caring bout that person when that person doesnt care bout u?"
have u ever asked urself.. "what's the point of loving.. when that person doesnt show love at all?"
have u ever asked urself.. "what's the point of being a friend.. when that person isnt a friend to u"

i think i shall stop here.. before u guys give me one-on-one counseling.. haha.. well, u wanna know what's up with me.. so here u go.. what i have been feeling this few weeks.. i dont know why i have drastic changes of emotions this few weeks. i guess its part of growing up huh? my friend was like saying that its probably puberty. i was thinking the exact same thing as my friend before he said that. lolz.