wish i knew the answer

we are told to listen closely to what God has to say
to see whether we have the peace in our hearts whenever we do something
but what if u cant hear what He has to say
and u chose something which is not God's BEST for u
and after a few months after making that choice,
u feel that u've made a mistake
the things around shows that it's wrong
thoughts that tell u that u've made the wrong choice

what should u do?

but on the other hand,
maybe ur just over thinking it
maybe ur just over sensitive
maybe it's all in ur mind
maybe u have made the RIGHT choice
but u let circumstances and problems separate u from the truth

life is so full of choices
sometimes i just wish that im forced to make one choice only
no a,b,c,d, or all of the above
i want just a or just b
i dont want to have the freedom to choose
well, most of the time i feel that way
but it's not good to have just one choice

making choices helps u to know who u are
what's ur priority
what or who u let to make the choice for u

sometimes i hate life altogether
but i love life as well
sometimes i hate feelings
but i love it when i feel the butterflies in my stomach, goosebumps, joy, happiness, etc

i learnt during quiet time today
that through trials
we can develop perseverance
by overcoming trials
we are able to come out better and stronger than we were before

but whyyyyy....???
i dont want i dont want
*pouts*
sigh
whatever
sheesh
bahs
grrrrrrr
roarrrrr