yack yack yack

im not the kind of person who loves to talk esp. around a huge number of ppl. i only talk alot around ppl that im close to. i really dont know what to do. my seminar presentation is coming up. i still think that i have time to prepare my slides and presentation. hence, the slumber-ness right now. i dont know whether there's such a word as that but oh wells. i dont care. as long as u get the idea. ahhaha.

so anyway... about my seminar presentation... it is an individual presentation and we are required to talk bout 30 mins. 15 mins is for u to present whatever u wanna present then another 15 mins is for Q&A. it's like going for meetings and presenting to ur clients bout what u wanna sell to them or create some sort of awareness. gosh! some ppl has gotten over this tough presentation already and they make it seem so easy. sigh

really hope that i'll do better cuz some of them couldnt present so well and some showed some indecent pictures. yucks!

happy happy me

happy to be called family





*huge-wide-little-happy-girl grin*

rainbow.....!

on friday my darling was SO sweet to come and help me with making a rainbow for my lesson today. sadly.... i forgot to take a picture of the beautiful rainbow. sigh.


before we started our work of art. we decided to cook lunch. it was fun cooking with him. we've cooked together once or twice. it's really fun la. what with experimenting all the nonsense. putting in everything we think that would make the food taste better. ahaha. of course there was alot of arguments. we were arguing bout every single thing bout how to cook and what to put into the food but the food tasted good. ahahha. emmm, let me clarify. we cooked egg with sausages and pasta(those easy easy one la) but only the egg tasted good. the pasta was blehsss. horrible. but oh wells, that's the result of not learning how to cook. ahaha.



so after lunch, we started with our rainbow. it was tough drawing it. tough outlining it. tough coloring it. cheh wahhh! talked until like i did it all. HE did it all. okay okay.. most of it la. im not so bad u know. ehhee. he sat there patiently drawing lines. measuring and especially having me as his "boss". this not perfect that not perfect. the size is not right. too big. too much complains cuz i wasnt the one doing it. ahaha

he was busy drawing and rushing against time
here i was.... eagerly wanting to take loads of picture

i did this. nice lehhh..
too bad didnt take picture of the rainbow
nevermind
come to church then u can see =)

how...?

how should we react when things dont go our way?

how should we react when things happen and we dont understand why?

how should we react when certain situation makes our loved ones unhappy?

how should we react when we dont see God's plan?

how should we react when things seem so uncertain?

how should we react when we've come to a road block?

how should we react when we dont know which path to choose from?

once again

once again God never fails to amaze me. i had an accounts test last week. well, as usual.... i totally forgot bout it and i didnt even know what to study. actually....... my lecturer (who is leaving us soon maybe cuz of our class. i dont know. *shrugs* but she's bad at teaching us anyway) decided to announce a class test on the day when i skip her class. sheesh. how smart is she huh? my friend, jocelyn, went for class and she told me bout the test the next day. it's quite hard to trust her because she's really blur. like seriously seriously blur AND SLOW! sometimes i just feel like killing her. like literally killing her.

so anyways... she herself wasnt sure bout what we're suppose to study. what the test is about. what the lecturer is asking us to study. and mind u.... she was the only one in my group of friends who went to class. so can i kill her yet???

luckily on the test day itself, i had an hour break. wow. amazing huh. every time ngam ngam before my test i have an hour break. so my friends and i decided to go somewhere to study. guess what??? yeahh... once again we dont know what are we studying. dont know what to focus on. so in the end, we didnt study at all. we just went for the test blindly

fyi, jocelyn and kenny is like the people that alex and i go to whenever we dont understand stuff bout accounts. and jocelyn was saying that she's gonna fail and things like that. so we made a deal. if she gets higher than us, then she'll treat us lunch again

well, today my test results came and i was so certain again that im gonna pass with flying colors...! haha. plssss.. this is accounts we're talking bout. sheesh. i was positive that im gonna fail so badly. but but but but.......God manage to prove me wrong again.


i got a whooping 90%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i got higher than jocelyn
can u believe it?????????????
i cant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



definitely all glory to God!!!! =)
i could never have done it by myself
truly God has helped me tremendously

one of God's funny ways

yesterday, was a really gloomy day. fetched jessica, claire, and ian and we reached church early. so we sat in the car waiting for the church to be open and suddenly a song by rihanna played on the radio. u know umbrella...? yeah so i was singing to it then claire was like what la...not raining also. then during worship, andrew went up and read a scripture from jeremiah 31:3. then he said at times when it's raining, when all the problems starts coming in, God is like our umbrella.

and when i heard that i was smiling, my heart took a leap out of my body, and i was amazed that God is such a humorous God. He can be so funny some times.




on a different note, i finally have gotten my bday present from my parents. it's super duper late. but for a good cause la. i've learnt patience. pity my mum. she's been travelling non-stop and i've been busy when she's free. so gotta wait for the right timing. then last night, we went to curve to go nichii. manage to buy some clothes which i'll never buy last time. and finally! i got to buy my long awaited sunglasses.

we were suppose to go amcorp. a place that nelson brought me to yesterday(another long story) but my mum said nevermind. just buy in curve. cuz if not, i have to wait somemore. bahs. so im a very happy girl! will post up pictures of my sunglasses soon yeah?



now i gotta go do my homework. if not... i'll be so lagging. must catch up fast.

a sneak peek

today was... emmm... different. kinda like what i named this post. a sneak peek of a full time mother's life. cuz dax and eve moved to a new place. and guess who they called to baby sit????? yes yes yes... DING DING DING!!!! they called moi!!!! im so proud and honored. ahaha. so anyway, jon came and fetch me after my class at about 11.30 then off we went to their new house. wowww.. it's pretty and a really beautiful neighborhood. with lots of playgrounds near each other.

it was tough to take care of danielle. seriously. i had to entertain her. let her get all the attention that she needs. let her sleep. make her comfortable. wipe her saliva. loads of stuff la except feeding her. ahaha. so hard to entertain her. of all the things that i had to do, i love the part where she was sleeping. where all i had to do was to pat her back to sleep. that was the best part of all. ahhaha. im so bad. now im thinking twice on whether i wanna be a full time mum. sigh

so anyways... i obviously took some pictures of her. haha. she's too adorable to pass up that opportunity =)

this was her when she was one month old or something
she was so small
so fragile



now...

look how much she has changed! =)
she's so adorable

love this time. ahahha

manage to make her hug the bolster like an adult
hahaha
but that position only lasted for a while
then i had to carry her and put her back to sleep

once upon a time

once upon a time, i got my heart broken
but now, it's healed =)

once upon a time, i thought i'll never find another guy to love
but now, i've found a guy who loves me so much

once upon a time, i thought i'll never be happy again
but now, he makes me laugh and smile even when i think of him

once upon a time, i thought i'll never love again
but now im loving him so much

once upon a time, i thought the "he" was the one for me
but now, i've found someone way way way better

once upon a time, i wish i didnt have to go through what i went through
but now, i thank God for sustaining me

once upon a time, i thought the pit that i was in will be my "home" from then on
but now, im out of the pit

once upon a time, i thought that it was just another crush
but now, i can plan the future with him

photo

he makes me pissed
then
he makes me smile


he makes me angry
then
he makes me happy


he makes me frustrated
then
he makes me calm

I STILL
LOVE
Y O U DARLING!

wondersss

woww... ahhaha. i got back my computing theory class test and i had the shock of my life. i was SO SURE that i was gonna fail. but but BUT BUT guess what...?? God manage to amaze me once again. see what happened was.... i totally forgot bout this class test until the day itself. i forgot to bring the book back the day before as well. so thank God i didnt have accounts before my class test. so i had an hour or less to skim read 4 long and hard chapters.

this sem... all the stuff that im studying is so confusing that i have no idea whatsoever bout what my lecturers is talking bout. sheesh. most of the time i just sit dazed in class. and all i could see is my lecturers mouth moving but i do not hear anything.

so anyways... back to my computing result. well, i got 80%. hehehe. i was so reluctant to go get my paper and see my result. and my friend was there with my lecturer and he was like.... wahhh! see... say never study somemore. cuz seriously... to be honest... i didnt remember anything i studied. hahaa =) all thanks to God who helped me out =)

suddenly i wish

"why cant i go for trips and holidays with friends...?"

"aiyah... of course not. ur a girl..."







sometimes i wish im a guy

sometimes i wish i can have all the freedom that i want

but i guess sometimes what i want is not the best huh?

but if im a guy, then i wont be able to be together with kevin

sigh

what a dilemma

goshhh..!!

whatever

bittersweet feelings

things have never been better
i've never felt this good once things has been settled
had a last minute call by my dearest bout family dinner last night
pooi yian and i went to mcd's right after practice for some snacks
then she dropped me in his house
got ready and off we went to holiday villa for dinner

we got there early
so we walked around and talked and settled the day old arguments
learnt things from each other
it felt good being transparent to him

sometimes he shocks me
he knows what im thinking without me telling him
he knows what im feeling without me telling him
it's like he reads my mind



that is why i love him so much!!! =)

moments

what's the point of sleeping when ur gonna wake up 3 hours later
tossing and turning on ur bed
trying to fall asleep again
only to find that an hour later
ur crying urself to sleep

and u wake up again
thinking bout the sad dreams u just had
the sad dreams was inevitable because of all that happened during the day
and once again
a de javu
ur crying urself to sleep once again






sometimes i think
what's the point...?

cleaning out my closet

so many things unsaid
feelings and emotions kept locked up
no one knows besides u and God
it starts to rot
starts to break u little by little
what's the point?
what benefit do u get when u keep everything inside?

u have no one else to hurt but urself
okay... maybe the ppl who loves u

it takes time to get used to being transparent
to speak ur mind
to speak bout whatever is bothering u

i for one
am a person who love, i repeat love, to keep everything inside
i would rather just shut up and not say anything
until maybe that something makes me really sad or like i cant take it anymore

late late post

have been quite lazy to come online esp on msn =) guess im not that addicted to blogging and msning huh?

so anyways....
let me concentrate on what i wanna write bout. i made this really really late anniversary present for kevin. i had so much things that i wanted to do. like a whole list that i wanted to get or make for him but i couldnt make it come true due to some unforeseen circumstances. and the week that i wanted to bake for him.... i fell sick. well, not VERY sick. but didnt feel my healthy self. so i gave it to him bout a few days late. haha











gotta give some credit to my mum cuz she helped me with the words. i could have never done such a great job without her. it's been a while since i've baked with her. i used to bake with her when i was young. actually, more like me doing the minor jobs and she was doing most of it. afraid that i might ruin it. hehe. it was fun time.

transformers

as what the title clearly states, marc, jon, kevin, and i went to watch transformers last friday. and i gotta say.... that the movie was AWESOME! it was soooo chun. i didnt expected it to be so good. kevin was as usual hyped up bout it. he was so crazy over it ever since the trailer came out. he talked bout it every single day. every given chance he had. so finally we went and watch it... and i gotta admit that i wasnt looking forward to it at all. i was feeling really like nonchalant.

but

OH MY GOODNESS!!! the show turned out really really good!! GREAT!!! beyond great actually. it was soo soo good. and i havent watch the cartoon or whatever. i only heard bout it from boys and man of all ages.

note to those who havent watch it

pls make it a point to go watch it
should go watch in the cinema
really really awesome!