studies studies studies... can i not think bout it?

ughhhhh!!!! i seriously hate to think bout my studies



when i finally think that i might wanna do something. then someone will come and tell me how hard it is. and that i might not cope with it and all


recently.. i was talking to my mum that maybe i wanna do web designing or something la. cuz then can do freelance and all mar. then she was quite supportive. even during this evening. but when i came down for dinner then we all were talking bout my studies la. then my bro was saying that IT is really not that easy and all. then my mum was like yeahh.. i dont think u should study that too.. i think u should do montessori.



then they started la. saying since i love kids and all. i really do. but i dont know whether i have the patience to teach them anot. i've tried before in my school. and maybe cuz of that. i decided not to teach in montessori's. cuz seriously... i feel really stressed. ugh! how laaaa.. can die!


then in the end.. they said that aiyahhh.. just think what u really like to do lo. then go and study it. then they say. but i think u should do montessori. then started again la. montessori this montessori that. and it's quite bad cuz im the kind right.. when i dont feel right bout something. then someone promotes it and all. i would think that it's not so bad after all. and that's what im feeling now. ugh!



and the worst part is that......... finally when im happy to go to kdu. when finally i thought kdu is not-so-bad-a-place afterall.. they had to make me go and do montessori in some other college. ugh! *faint* but i guess it's quite bad that i accept kdu cuz of kevin. cuz he's going there.... that's why i suddenly see kdu shining and glowing. ahaha. if not i feel neutral bout kdu. ugh!


i dont know la.
i dont know whether montessori is right for me.
i dont know whether i have the patience.
whether i can cope with it.
whether i can teach the kids well.



but one thing good bout montessori is that....
i can have holidays.
and it's not really a FULL day job.
i get to see kids
but kids now a days right.... it's not as 'guai' as last time
it's like they get what they want.
their parents worships the ground they walk on
ok ok.. maybe not THAT exaggerating. but still........

sorry to those parents out there. hahaha

sighhhhh.. how how how???? dont wanna think bout it la.. whatever di la..

lalalalala.. *im not thinking* *im not thinking* weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. how nice =)