someone made my day and i drove today!

haha.. today.. actually, this whole week. i had fun. didnt do much work. talked and played around most of the time. cuz it's my teacher's last day. so mostly we like took pictures and all.. what a nice time eh. since this week was the week after the holidays. so we wont be doing much work anyway.

so today we had a fun, playing day. talked around most of the time. then around 12 something we had our lunch at the field opposite my school. we thought it would be quite hot...but thank God it was cloudy and windy. so we had a blast. then after that most of us stayed behind and played with ice. cuz they bought ice for the drinks. then suddenly everyone was like throwing ice, putting it in ppl's shirt. we had ice fight.

in the beginning of the week we had cake fight. then at the end of the week we had ice fight. how nice. haha. we were playing so much and of course taking loads of pictures. there was once my teacher gave me the camera to take pictures. and when i gave it back to her.. she was like why all only ur pictures one??? hahaa.. then i was like of course. that's the result of giving the camera to esther. hahaha. lol. so anyway, i hope and pray that my teacher will have a fun time studying education for special ppl in aussieland. hmmm, wonder why everyone is going to aussieland all of a sudden. weird huh.

ohh ohh.. i drove today! i went to the mcd's drive-thru. i was really scared at first. cuz i keep having this image that something or some weird accident might happen. but thank God. He protected me. so i was quite proud of myself la. haha.. that i manage to drive. i thought i wont be able to drive for like... forever. but today i manage to drive. my bro wanted fries then i was also craving for it. then he gave me money then i was like what? u want me to drive? then he was like it's just the small car.. then i was like ok laa.. BREATHE IN AIR to calm myself down. then i went off. hahaa.

when i went there. i ordered. then the guy who gave the fries said something.. then i was like what? excuse me? then he mumbled something. i think he's not from here. or doesnt know how to speak english properly. so i was like what? then he slowly said. u got a very sweet face. i straight away BLUSHED and said thank u and smiled and drove off.. haha.. so weird huh. but oh wells. haha.

my first accident

sighhh.. i never thought or expected that ill get into an accident. and it was a damn scary one. i could always replay it again and again in my mind. sigh.

well, today was a normal happy day. went to school.. celebrated a belated birthday for 2 of my friends. cuz adam(one of the bday boy) was sick on his bday. so we had to do it today. so we had fun eating cake, singing bday song. then suddenly ming zen came and wanted to give adam a piece of cake. but he smashed it at his face. so the cake fight began. haha. everyone had cake on their shirts, face, hair... everywhere. lol. so we enjoyed ourselves even though later we all smelled so gross. we smelt like puke. cuz it was a cheese cake. haha. took alot of pictures cuz the seniors teacher is gonna leave soon for aussieland.

then usually on tuesdays we play badminton.. so i went home. quickly change and went to the taman megah court. and nicholas was asking us not to be late. and guess what.. they were the late ones. ish ish. at least i had li ann's sisters(grace and joyce) to talk to. cuz the grace school goes there every tuesday too. so anyway, then it was 5.30 and my dad told me to fetch wing lian at that time. cuz his classes ends at that time. but wing lian said 6 something. so i didnt know which is which la. so around 5.35.. i checked my phone. and i had like 11 missed calls. and then when i called my bro. he was like scolding me, asking me where am i, why i didnt look at the time, why am i late, and to quickly go and fetch him now.

so i rushed out of the court. drove out of the compound and accidently took the wrong turn. i usually take the right turn cuz it's easier and i feel it's nearer to reach kdu la. but i dont know why i took the left turn. so i was like aiya! why did i turn left. and then i saw there was no cars behind me. and i double check just in case. then i was soooo smart.. i attempted a u-turn at a double-white line. then suddenly.. out of no where. this motorcycle came in front of me and bang-bang-boom. i hit him. and i was so shocked and scared. i quickly made the u-turn cuz..

1. i was in the middle of the road. if i stopped there, cars might come and bang me.
2. i was shocked! i didnt know what the heck to do.

so let me continue. i made the u-turn but i went over his bike. so maybe that's why it costs A TON to fix it. then as i was u-turning....this thought came in my mind. just drive away. and dont care.. buttt... sighhh.. this other malay on the motor saw and was shouting at me from the badminton court compound. so i had to make another u-turn back to where i came from. and park at the parking spaces at the side. and then i was so scared. shaking from head to toe. i went down and then there were like alot of motorcyclists stopping and helping that guy.

then there was this chinese uncle and aunty who stopped and talked to me. and asked me to stay calm. asked me to call my friends and all.. but the aunty was really nice.(hmmm. guess not all malaysians are THAT bad) she was trying to calm me down. telling me that it's ok. that accidents do happen and all. she was talking and talking and talking. but the way she talk was really funny la. sigh. so i called my bro and my dad and told my bro i met an accident.. so said he'll come.. then i called jer mayn to tell her and the guys that i met an accident. so they quickly came out and see.

so then they came out. then the uncle and aunty left cuz they saw that i had friends di. so the rest left to continue their badminton game while junior stayed with me. sigh. i wish i could be one of them. being able to just walk away cuz nothing happened to them. sigh. but...i couldnt. i couldnt accept the fact that the accident really happened. i was still in shock. then my bro came with his friend. then his friend was like talking and trying to settle things with the guy and his friend. then only it hit me that it actually really happened.. so i couldnt stop crying. i was so scared. didnt know what to do. scared of my father, my mum and also scared that the guy might be seriously injured.

so then we drove to the mechanic shop near-by to find out how much did the damage cost. and oh my gosh! i didnt know it would be so expensive to repair a cacated bike. ish. then wait for my mum to come and talk to the guy. so then my mum went with the indian guys to go to the clinic while me and my bro went back home. sigh. i was so scared to even sit in a car. i dont know whether ill be able to drive next time. i think i shall abstain from driving for a while. sigh.

but i just wanna thank God la.. that the damage on the car wasnt THAT bad. but i think it'll be costly to fix even the smallest thing on the car. and thank God that nothing happened to me. i think only mentally hurt.

*strong enough*

as i rest against the cold, hard wall
will u pass me by?
will u criticize me as i sit and cry?
i had fought so hard and thought that all my battles has been won
only to find that the war has just begun

is He not strong enough?
is He not pure enough?
to break me, pour me out, and start again
is He not brave enough?
to take one chance with me
please can i have one chance to start again?

will my weakness for an hour make me suffer for a lifetime?
is there anyway to be made whole again?
if im healed, renewed, and find forgiveness, find the strength i have never had
will my scars forever ruined God's plan?

He took my life into His hands and He turned it all around
in my most desperate circumstance
it's there i've finally found

that You are strong enough
that You are pure enough
to break me, pour me out and start again
that You are brave enough
to take one chance on me
oh thank You for my chance to start again

*nice song with nice meaning eh?*

a day in sungai wang

today me, delz, and lay yan (and later joined by mich cuz she has school) went to sungai wang for shopping purposes. ahhaa. me and delz took the free bus from ikano to the kelana jaya lrt station, then from there we met with lay yan who took the day off to go shopping with us. then we stopped at kl central and then walked over to the monorail and sat till bukit bintang. and i gotta admit that it was quite fun. lol. my friend asked me why of all places i chose to go to sungai wang to go bridemaid dress shopping. haha. but cuz i heard there were quite nice things to buy there.

so anyway.. we were walking till our legs hurt. like what lay yan said "her legs was bout to fall off" hahaha. we were laughing so much and making a fool of ourselves. then when we were in one shop. we were laughing and making so much noise that the lady came and ask us whether we are ok. then when we left the shop, she looked really pissed. haha. as usual la. i mean tell me one time where we're not doing that. emmm. i think i can. during church service. ahaha. cuz we can never do that. so anyway, we bought a few stuffs. but lay yan couldnt find what she went there for. hmm, nevermind. there is more shopping trips to come. hahaa.

i had a really great day today but the worse part was that i had my gastric again. sigh. this is like so saddening. aih. but this time we ate a little later only mar. sigh. so i really hope that this stupid gastric thingy will end. anyway, i think i gotta get started with my testimonial for my discipleship class. shucks la. this is bad. i totally forgot bout it. when we were given that assignment, i kept telling myself that i should start writing. and now.. sighh.. tmr is our deadline. sigh.

a day in tropicana

hmmm.. today i had a blast! really! i thought i wouldnt in the beginning. but at the end of the day, i didnt regret going for it. though i like used 40km worth of petrol. but it was worth it la. hehe. well, i went to tropicana around 10 something. met up with joy and shana. but the rest wasnt there yet. so we sat around...guess where.. the only place that has aircond was in the changing room. haha. so we sat at the benches there. then around like 15-20 mins, the VERY LATE ppl came. haha. we were suppose to meet there at like 10 man. and there i was thinking that i was late. hhaa. so i rushed all the way there. sheesh. ahaha. so then we met at the badminton court. played a few games. haha. i think i got used to playing badminton. so my hand didnt ache. it has been a really long time since i played badminton. so around feb the guys started going every week for badminton. so a few of the girls joined them la. at that time, after i play, my hand will ache for a week. so like i normally play on tuesday. till the next tuesday my hand will be healed. but then i played again. so it takes another week to heal again. and it went on and on. but this time. i played on tuesday, then it didnt hurt that much la. then today i manage to play again. i was like woah! amazed. and i got to beat julian man. can u believe it? hahaha.

so after a while...shana and joy went to swim cuz they didnt feel comfy with the guys around. so the rest of us stayed on to play badminton. then around 1 something we all decided to go swim. but shana and joy lost their locker keys and my slippers was in their locker.. so i couldnt join them. so me and carolyn waited till they could get us the extra key. then after what seemed hours, we finally got the key which cost them 20 bucks for losing it. haha. so we forced the guys to go and change while the girls stayed on so that i could go and have a swim. cuz i didnt bring swimsuit and i was wearing white. so we played and played then finally we all were so hungry and it was getting late. so we all decided to go and bath(the toilet was really nice!!! and we made so much noise.. as usual) and change to go for lunch/dinner. ahha.

we went to the palm something something. cant remember what it was called. i went there the last time for josh's and joey's bday dinner. and gosh the ppl there are so rude. the patrons asked the waitor to tell us to keep quiet. can u believe it? so as usual.. we didnt give a damn. haha. so anyway.. continue bout my fun day in tropicana. emmm, a few of them got sunburn.. joy was the worst. i wasnt that bad. had rosy cheeks only. and then we laughed and laughed till our stomachs hurt. we didnt want to go home cuz it was really fun but it was getting late. so we reluctantly leave. i think the ppl there are glad to see us leave. alot of ppl was like looking at us. like we were bunch of hyenas. so anyway, by the time i got home. it was around 6.45-7. and i had gastric after that cuz i didnt eat the whole day till around 4 something. and i was out at the sun so much that my rashes from sports day came back out. sigh. at least it wasnt as bad la. it really felt like we were on a holiday or something. it was really nice. hope we could do that again one day.

cont.

so that's the first day of my hot& sunny day. the second day was my sports day yesterday. i went there with sean and justin. was really tired to even remember the directions. so thank God i didnt drive. if not ill probably get lost like elaine. heheh. the complex wasnt THAT nice. we went to matsushita sports complex. it has a swimming pool, indoor arena(which has badminton, table tennis, and basketball), and the tracks, with a big football field in the middle of it. with the sub field and netball field towards the end of the complex. they said that it's gonna be a big thing. kind of like a carnival, with 20 over stalls and 300 over ppl coming. hahahahahah!!! yeah right man!!!! plsss.. the ppl who came didnt even fill the whole stadium seats man. sheesh. and there was like a really small place for stalls.. actually, it wasnt really stalls. it was like just a small corner for food and small corner for drinks. really really cacat. and all the programs was like happening together. it really sucked. everyone should be at the same place at the same time man. idiots. the medal&trophy awards should be given out when everyone is there at the end of the day. but they didnt. silly ppl. and we werent really familiar with the place in the beginning so we practically got lost a few times. but in the end, we manage to get familiar with the place la.

so first we had to gather out at the tracks according to schools or groups that u went there with to sing the negaraku and stuff. was super hot. and they made us stand out there for like forever. but at least i had junior and julian to entertain me. hahaha. so anyway, after that we had the dance thing which my friends like practiced after school. was really nice cuz my friend adam watched the video clip and learned all the steps from it and thought the others. was really cool la. hahaha. then after that me and audrey had to help ezra with the telematch. mostly with all the little kids and all. and we had to stand in the sun.. so i think i got darker.. ishh ishh.

after the telematch, we went to play badminton for a little while. i played with zane, carol, joy, julian, and ian. was really fun la. and me and joy was like laughing and laughing like crazy. ahahah. then we got tired and the running thingy was starting. so me and joy went out to support shana. and yay! we won all the race. the guys and the girls. then after supporting them, me and joy went to get some food and drinks. we were really really hungry. so whatever we saw, we just buy. haha. but the food really sucked. no matter how hungry we were, we just couldnt down the food. it was THAT horrible. so after eating, we went to the indoor arena to watch the badminton and basketball tournament. the basketball tournament was the best. we, the girls, was like shouting and shouting everytime our team scored. haha. so when the basketball wasnt on, we continued playing badminton. and guess what?? our school got to the finals for basketball, so we continued to cheer our players on. we were soooo loud that sometimes the referee for the badminton turned and asked us to quieten down. ahhaha. but we were softer only for a while. the basketball game was the last to end, so we got the whole arena to ourselves. so we couldnt stand it. we couldnt contain our excitement inside. so we got up and jump up and down and cheering and shouting for our team. we were like the loudest and the most supporting group. haha. so in the end, we won the basketball game tooo!!!! woooohooooo!!! i didnt regret going for the sports day.

but throughout the whole time, i had rashes. i had it on my neck, my legs, and my hand. but when i went home and check. i had it all over my back, and half in front. it was really bad. until now my rashes on my legs hasnt go yet. cuz i think i scratch it the most. and im still itching. haha. but it was worth it la. for this crazy sports day. had a blast! hahaha. so my school won for the netball, race 4X100 m(girls and guys), basketball.. im not so sure bout the others. ahha. but i know we won alot of medals. =)

2 days in the sun

i've been busy this few days. i kinda lost track of time. i didnt know it was sunday dii.. yesterday night i was wondering what day is today. then when i found out, i was shocked. so let's see what i've done so far..

on friday i didnt have school. went to school for a while... talked and crap around. then went to 1u for lunch. throughout the whole week, we were deciding whether we should eat pizza or chili's. almost like half of the ppl going chose chili's but my teacher said that we should watch some of the ppl's wallet cuz not many ppl can afford. then we were debating bout it saying that we can share and all.. since the portions are big esp. for the girls. but in the end, the teacher's settled with pizza. but thank God.. when we arrived there, pizza was quite pack. so to fit about 20 over ppl there would be quite a challenge. so we decided to go to chili's and whoa! dang! we were happy man! ahhaha.

so after lunch. i rushed back home to get ready for dax&evelyn's wedding in pd. super cool eh. haha. it was really hot seriously. but the place was nice la. really really nice. great place to take pictures. haha. but too bad my picture taking buddy(justina) isnt here. aihsss. so anyway, it was really really hot. so the ceremony and dinner was on the beach. it was really nice la...if it's overseas. it's not nice with our hot weather. we had kites as a door gift. so after the wonderful and hot ceremony, photo taking session, and the throwing bouquet thingy, some of the kids and not to forget the adults...hehe...went to play with the sand and kites. was really fun cuz i only got to play kite like once and that was like a long time ago. oh yeah. i got the bouquet. was super funny. when evelyn threw the flower. all the girls like parted like the red sea. hahaha. the flower fell between me and eva. but eva like moved really far away from it. so in the end, the bouquet went to none other than me. i was like noooooo!!!! hahaha.. but i had to take it. so was really embarrassed. the dinner was so-so. not to complain bout the food. but let's just say the dishes wasnt really my cup of tea. hahah. i got to steal some yummy food from my dad though. ate some pretty good desserts too.

2nd attempt

well, today was a 2nd attempt for dress-shopping. or should i say hunting. ahaha. me and ginie was walking around 1u till we got really tired. back pain, leg pain...everywhere pain la. ahhaa. and guess what??? we finally settled on a long skirt that we saw the last time we went dress-hunting. can u believe it? horrible right. ughhh. well, at least we manage to find a skirt. now all that's left is a top. so hopefully the next time we go, we'll be able to find the top to match it with. what to do. im so fat. cant fit in some nice clothes. sighhhhh. feel like chopping all my fats out. damn sad case wei. aihhhh. so i hope that on our third attempt, we'll be able to find the top to match the skirt.

i feel really sad that only slim or skinny ppl look good in any clothes they wear. but fat ppl, whatever they wear right. looks horrible. im not mocking those fat ppl around the world. im just exasperated of myself. ughhhh! want to die diii!! sighhhh. damn sad case la.. aihhh.. dont want to think bout it di la. but at least going dress-shopping gave me an opportunity to catch up with ginie. i told her some good news today during dinner time. she was really happy bout it. hahaha. been a really long time since i've sat down and talk to her and update her with my life. we used to be able to do this pretty often but we both got busy with our own lifes. so wasnt able to catch up as often. so maybe not being able to find the desired dress/bridesmaid clothes had a purpose. is to help me and ginie catch up on past and present things. hehe.

so anyway, i think i better go and do some work. havent been doing my work for weeks man. been really really R-E-A-L-L-Y lazy! oh my gosh! this is bad. i should be doing a pac test a week. but i havent even finish my LA. ok ok. i better go do some work now. shall update my blog soon. hehe =)

*follow*

i was listening to this song when i was driving to school. it really meant alot to me. esp. the verse. it really touched me la. and reminded me that no matter where i run and hide, God is still there for me. He's great and mighty and awesome.


where can i hide
where Your love cannot reach me
where can i go
where Your arms, They're not here for me
where can i run to
where i cannot feel Your love

cuz Jesus Your love rescued me
so ill follow after You

wherever You take me
im following You
im gonna follow You
in everything i say, in everything i do
im gonna follow You
in every step i take, i know that You're with me
im taking up my cross, im following You
im gonna follow You

everything that i live for,
ill follow after You
everyday of my life Lord,
ill follow after You

days passing so fast!

woah! i cant believe it!!! tmr is friday di mannn.. too fast tooo fast. in a blink of an eye, it's the end of the week. well, i have like 3 more books to do. cant wait to finish them. and guess what. im so smart that i left the hardest subject last. aww man. i really need God's wisdom. cuz i really hate english. u might ask why do i hate english when it's like the easiest subject in the world. well, i used to love english.. back in primary school. back in gov school. but in homeschooling. our english is really hard. at lvl 10, ur already studying what college students are studying. soooo... that's why i really hate english. i kind of like science now but too bad. i finished my last book today. it's really nice cuz it's all calculations.

so anyway, today i went bridesmaid dress hunting with ginie in midvalley(my cousin's soon-to-be wife) and emmm.. it was really unsuccessful. seriously. it was really bad. ugghhhh!!! whenever u dont want something, it's always there. but when u want something, it seems to be missing. seriously hate it when that happens. so whenever i go shopping, i always tell myself that i dont wanna get anything. hoping that ill get something when i reach there. haha. cuz it's really frustrating. so we'll have to go another time to 1u. i really hope that i get to find something. cuz if not we'll have to tailormake. and from our past experience, we really dont want to go to that stage. ahahha. but the best part of today was that we got to eat 'ngau lam mee'. aww mann!!! it was soooo delicioussss!!!!! yummy!!!! *slurp* just the thought of it makes me want to eat again. ahhaha. so anyway, it's late and i have class tmr. i guess i better turn in now. =)

mixed feelings

as for some of u know.. i've been teaching in my school since thursday last week. well, last week was quite fun. cuz most of the time i was talking with the kids and was laughing around with them. but the main teacher there was telling me not to be so close to them. cuz if not it's very hard to control them. soooo... this week gotta be a little strict with them. but it's really hard la.. then i had to teach this kid that has learning disabilities. it's like he can do maths, but when he looks at words. he's mind like suddenly stops. hmmmm, maybe i can relate to that. haha. cuz it happened to me most of the time. i mean last time la. not now. now it's mostly laziness that's stopping me from studying....so anyway. yeah, that's what i've been doing in school.

and i've been asking God for strength this few days. been facing some difficult situations. dont really want to talk bout it here. as long as i know and God knows. then it's ok. maybe i have to share it with delz one day. aiks. did i say maybe. i think i should let her know. hehe. so anyway, i better get back to studying right now. it's quite late di. =)