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he has been good to her... telling that he's here for her no matter how she felt. that he'll never leave her and that she's THE girl. he loves her so much that he's willing to sacrifice alot of things just to make her happy. just seeing her smile makes his heart flutter and his palms sweat. hearing her say i love u makes him grin like a little child who found a box full of treasure.

however, sad to say, the girl let fear and uncertainty grip her. insecurity threatened her to the edge of the cliff. no, she would not literally kill herself. never would she think bout taking her own life. but deep down inside.... she's dying slowly. inch by inch the fear, uncertainty, and insecurity was eating away her joy, her laughter, her happiness.

he feels so frustrated because of the way she's acting. he's asking himself what has he done to deserve this treatment when all he did was showing his love for her. he's wondering what made her act the way she's acting right now. what made her turn her back to him. he could feel her slowly fading away and he pushed himself to hold tight to her. never letting her out of his side and heart.

all she could think about is what-if's. what-if things ended differently. what-if things werent like how they are now. what-if she made a different choice. what-if.... what-if... with all her might she could not stop this series of questions entering her head. she wanted to run away from all of it. when finally she realized. she realized that she tried to do all this by her own might. by her own strength.

she finally understood why was it so hard for her to get over it and accept the fact. it was because of her choice. her decisions. her decisions to wallow in depression rather than bracing the fact that he did choose her! he didnt choose anyone else. but he decided to choose her. her choice of doing everything by her own strength and not God's. that was the solution. God is the solution!