a moment of sadness

just came back from sending natalie off. me, kim, and jie. the atmosphere it the car was really funny. we were like laughing and crapping all the way. we wanted to surprise nat...so we told her that we couldnt make it due to some circumstances. and she was so devastated. like really really sad and all..tears was at the verge of breaking out.

so we said our goodbyes through the phone. wishing each other well. saying we'll miss each other cuz there wont be times where we can simply call each other and just talk bout anything under the sun. or times where we call each other and ask each other to go out. but we left late to the airport. so we were pretty scared that she would board the plane. so we had to call her to tell her the truth. haha. and she couldnt believe her ears.

so as we bid her goodbye, tears were unstoppable. though this is not her first time leaving...she came back for hols...but we didnt get to send her off the first time. therefore, we went today. it was really sad. and she couldnt pass through u know the place where u have to put ur passport there. she went like to 2 different places to go in. haha. i really wanted to laugh but the sadness got the better of me and kim.

it really felt weird. cuz i couldnt believe what's happening before me. like saying goodbye to her. seeing her going down the escalator. and not to forget... seeing her carry 3 heavy bags. seeing her wave before she walks in. it was really surreal. i couldnt believe my eyes.

after that..as we got into the car..the atmosphere was really gloomy. we didnt have mood to laugh and didnt have the mood to crap. we started to think bout next time where slowly one by one of our gang will leave overseas. going to different parts of the world. going to different colleges and unis. pursuing different dreams. i mean now it's already happening. nat and shin thong left di. soon it'll be kim. soon it'll be i dont know who. dont even want to think anymore. it'll be too sad. imagine how many times we have to go to the airport to see like 20 over ppl off. it'll be like 20 over times man. devastating. sigh