Monday, February 13, 2006

aw man

sigh.. i dont mean to be sad. and i dont mean to write yet another sad and depressed post. but i cant help but feel that way now. i kept getting reminded that tmr is valentine's day. i mean what the heck la. i know how to keep track of the days. and stop rubbing it in my face that i dont have a "special partner" to share it with. i really do hope that i could answer YESSS!!!! I HAVE A SPECIAL SOMEONE TO SHARE TMR WITHHHH!!!! but i've gotta face the truth. that tmr is gonna be like any other day. doing my usual stuffs.

i cant help but go back in time. when i had someone to share the "lovey-dovey day" with. i cant help but think that tmr everyone will have a nice and romantic time with their partners while ill be home, dreading the minutes that passes by. im not saying that i want to spend all my money on the day where every price goes way up. and im not saying that im complaining bout what im going through. and im not saying that im still stuck in the i-cant-let-go moment. im totally through with that. im so done of wishing he will come back to me again.

so after all is said and done....why do i still feel like s**t??!! why do i feel as crappy as before? isit because i have no one other than myself to spend tmr with? isit because i have no life?

im sorry if u feel depressed after reading this. but i cant help it. i really needed to say what my heart wants me to say. i just needed to let it all out. hehe =) now i feel a little better

3 comments:

YANZ said...
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YANZ said...

hey dearie, dun be depressed la, k... :) Valentine's Day is actually just seriously overrated la, in fact jo & i didnt even do anything yesterday, just stay at home,eat dinner & watch tv as usual. when u have a steady next time, u'll find that sometimes its more precious to just love each other everyday FoC, instead of waiting for Feb 14 for an excuse to spend alot on the person... ;D anyways, next round u feel lonely on V-Day come find us, delz &/or I can teman u & be as lovey-dovey as u want us to be!! kekeke ;D

oh, n dun forget u have a Lover too, the Greatest One ever, no one loves like He does!! ;)

esther said...

hey dear, quite true la. sometimes it's not only that day that u love that person extra but it's everyday. i wonder who started this valentine's thingy huh. ahhaa. eyerrrrrr. ahahha. thanks so much kai cheh. ooo.. yess yess.. we shall not the One who gives the Greatest love of them all. muahs!