a friend

hey... meet isabella
a girl whom i knew since the day i was born
she's a close friend
it's like we know each other inside and out
at times we are so alike
but sometimes i feel like i dont know her at all





she's the kind of person who gives up whenever things dont go her way
she loves to wallow in self pity
she's still like that even when people gives in to what she wants
she wants people to pamper her
she wants people to do the things that she expects them to do(like as though they can read her mind)




she wants everything to go her way
the way that she expects
the way that she imagines it to be
the way that she fantasizes




constantly she tells me that she hates herself
she thinks that she's not worthy of love
she thinks that everyone is against her
she even pushes away the person who loves her so much
that's the part she hates the most







remember when i say that at times we are so much alike?
hahaha
this is the time when i feel that we're so much alike

decisions

sigh
im so sad
i hate making decisions
i hate it when i make wrong estimations
i hate it when i think that i have alot of time in my hands




today i was forced to make the most unpeaceful decision i've ever made

i forgot that tonight i had plans

i felt that i needed to do something today

luckily ashley smsed me bout dinner

but in the end of the day, i decided that i will not go

the decision was also supported by kevin

sigh

i've never felt like this before

i didnt feel the peace when i made the decision at all

i didnt feel good when i decided not to go

i felt like i've made the biggest mistake of my life

sigh

i wish that i would never again be stucked in this miserable cross road

but oh wells

this is life

it is filled with cross roads, choices to make, good and bad

aih

so many things to do

so little time

spring cleaning

wow... i managed to clean up my table. how amazing. i never thought that this day will come. but it did. i finally got tired of postponing my spring cleaning days that i've finally done something bout it. actually, it's because wing lian has moved back here and he has been in my room like constantly. so i couldnt stand it. my own rubbish i still can bear. but have to have another person as well? bahs cannot cannot. hahaha

so im so proud of myself that i manage to make my table and room look clean. just wondering how long this will last. hahaha

groan

im an extremist

once i start thinking,
i tend to go to one extreme to the other
i can be VERY happy or VERY sad

once something dont go my way
once something dont make my day
i tend to give up
tend to think that maybe it's not right
that maybe it's not meant to be




this is me

trip to a park

im so happy that he has started classes. i know it's abit bad in my part but i get to see him in college and if our schedule's permit, he fetches me home or we just meet for lunch.




me is a happy girl



i've never been to this park near my house before. it's near mcd's. it's been there for a million years. it's just that i never go there. so today we bought an ice cream from mcd's and went over there for a walk


wow. the pond is really so so so "clean" that makes me enjoy the scenery even more

i just notice that this pic
makes us look like we're dancing

i hate to admit this.... but his eyes IS bigger than mine. sheesh.




no la.. maybe it was just the sun. that's why. u know me and the sun do not mix well. hahhaa




ps. i love u babes =)

ooo... ahhh... *goggleed eyed*

im finally over and done with my seminar presentation. dressed formally unlike my usual t-shirts. palms and feet sweating profusely. sheesh. went up there. talked so much. was so proud of myself for that. cuz usually im the shy one. showed my slides. then guess how much i got?? i was so shock when i saw my evaluation paper thingy. i got 90%!!! can u believe it? no right? so do i. truly by God's grace and wonders. i would have never done so well without my Father up in heaven =)


THANK YOU GOD! =)