amazed.at.God's.love

have u ever wondered how God love u so much even when u are darn annoying?

have u ever wondered how God love u so much even when u are darn irritating?

have u ever wondered how God love u so much even when u sin again and again?

have u ever wondered how God love u so much even when u break ur promises again and again?

have u ever wondered how God love u so much even when u hurt His or one's feelings?

have u ever wondered how God love u so much even when u judge/hate others?

have u ever wondered how God love u so much even when u dont love Him?

here i am. thinking everyday. how can God do that? maybe that's why He's God. He's our awesome, wonderful Father.

ive always wanted and still want His love. i want to pass His love around. but sometimes it's not THAT easy.

i pray everday that i can make good and wise choices and decisions in life.
that ill look to Him no matter the circumstances.
but everytime when im in a bad situation..or when things dont go my way,
i tend to forget bout God and ill be fuming away.
hating everything in life.
hating myself, family, person who did something wrong to me, and so on and so forth.

but i've found the answer whenever im angry.
that is to listen to worship songs
cuz that's when i slowly submit to God

there was once Eng Kok was saying.. "how can u live a life where u watch gross movies, speaking bad words, telling dirty jokes and after that u go and worship God"
that's when it struck me.
how can i do that.
and that i ought to live a life of worship
worship doesnt only mean singing
it also means ur life

im really trying hard to be a good example
though it's not easy
but im drawing strength, love, perseverance, and patience from God

sometimes u think u can do things on ur own
even the simplest things in life
u think "bahss.. why do i need God in such a simple thing"
but i've learnt that in everything.
include God in it
as much as u want ur loved ones in ur life
u should want that for God too

im not saying that im doing everything i said above
im still learning each day
learning to put God first
learning to give Him the throne of my heart

i admit that i still have half of my butt sitting on the throne of my heart
i still havent given my heart and life fully to God yet
notice the word YET?
yeah.. im hoping and praying, with the help of God, that one day
He'll be in control of my heart, life, decisions, choices, future