fingerprints of God

there's so much feelings in me right now
that i dont know how to pen it down

im not a great poet
im not very good with english
not very good in using "flowery" words to express my feelings
btw.. when i say flowery it meant bombastic words

love is never easy
that's what i keep telling myself when kevin & i are facing problems

when is too much?
how do u know when to stop?
everyone feels differently
everyone reacts differently
so how do u know
what is the right thing to do or say
and when is it right to do or say it?

u know sometimes when u say "im sorry" to a person
u wish it was enough
u'll wish that the word sorry is enough
enough to erase the pain,
the hurt,
the ache,
that was caused by one

but when one says it to u
sorry is never enough
sorry is just a word
sorry cant take away the pain,
the hurt,
the ache that was caused by one

so what do u do?
what do u say...
to make it all better?
to make everything seem "perfect" again

it's like u know u cant expect to always have good times in a relationship
but why do we always end up expecting that?

there'll always be someone out there
that will be better than the person u are together with
but in the end....
do u CHOOSE to love the person u chose to love?
do u choose to love one's imperfections?
do u choose to love one's weakness?
do u choose to love one's differences?

the answer is YES
but i can say
though it's easy to say yes to all the above
it's never easy to act it out

cuz i myself arent perfect
i myself arent full of strengths
that's why
everyday.....
i ask God for help
ask God for wisdom

cuz i cant do it by myself
i cant forgive one
i cant be perfect
i cant be everything i want to be
without God's help

but i pray
that God will give me all His strength
His peace
His wisdom
and most importantly
His love
to love myself & others

sometimes it's easier to give up
than to put effort
but why u wanna give up on something
that u once had hoped, dreamed, wished, hanged on dearly, and prayed hard about?
was that feeling so easy to forget?
was that feeling so easy to give up on?
was that feeling so easy to just throw away?

sometimes whatever u think that is funny
just simple playing around
or is just a joke
it might not be to the other person