i learnt

i've learnt not to procrastinate
but yet i still do, no matter how many times i tell myself



i've learnt not to expect so much from a person
because when u dont get what u expect, u'll be damn sad
but yet i still expect too much



i've learnt not to think so much
but yet i still think alot, and i mean alot
too much to even count it



i've learnt to let God have control over my life
but yet i still wanna take over and tell Him how it's done



i've learnt to not be so sensitive
but yet i still take everything personally



i've learnt to forgive and forget
but yet i still keep everything inside
bottle it up and bury it deep down inside



i've learnt to say im sorry whenever i know i did something wrong
but yet sometimes i still let my pride get the best of me






u think i dont miss the times where we can laugh non-stop?
we laugh at almost nothing at all
and u know that even a simple thing would make me burst out in laughter


u think i dont miss the times where we get to spend the whole day together?
it's enough just knowing that we're together
sitting or walking side-by-side



u think i dont miss the times where we can talk bout anything?
where we would just call or sms each other for nothing



u think i dont miss the times where we are all lovey-dovey?
with no worries in the world
with no arguments
with no disagreements
with no sadness



u think i like being like this?
feeling the tension everytime im near u
letting the numbness get to me
allowing myself to drop further and deeper into the black pit
u think i love it?



i hate moments like this too
moments where i cant express how i really feel cuz of the anger inside
moments where i cant say i love u when i know deep down inside i still do
moments where tears just comes non-stop in the middle of the night
moments where i just feel like giving up
moments where i just dont know what to do or say
moments where we're not lovey dovey
moments that makes us uncomfortable

hip hop puppy

my dad bought a size too small for cookie. so we went and change the size. i saw one that was really cute. it was in a pretty pink. sooo u know. i wanted that. it says von dog instead of von dutch or whatever. ahaha. weird shirts that u find for a dog. seriously.



the shirts was really expensive as well. ranging from rm 25-70. that was the price that i saw from some of the shirts and dresses that i liked. i dont dare to think of how high the price might go to. tsk tsk. i would rather get a shirt for myself or kevin if im gonna spend that kinda of money. sheesh.




suddenly i feel like i've become one of those crazy dog lovers. like paris hilton, carrying her toy dog everywhere she went.

i've vouch that i'll never be one of those people.

those that goes crazy about their dogs. treating their pets like their own child.

giving them air cond rooms, evian water, clothes to wear just in case they get chilly, a million toys to play with, etc etc. but somehow, as i was carrying cookie, finding clothes for her with my dad, i felt like i've broken my own promise to self. shucks!



awwww man *bonks head*

i didnt know she can do an emo shot

she reminds me of kenny from southpark
ahhahaha

contrastingly, her hippy hoppy shirt says that she's a chihuahua


but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO


trust me


she's not. ahhaa. she's a mini pincher. however u spell it. bahs




she super layan me. everytime i wanna take a picture of her. she'll pose or look at the phone. it's like as if she knows that im taking a picture of her. sheesh




aww man. enough of writing a post bout my puppy. feeling like im one of those bimbo girls

to you

to u, u can be honest with everything
to me, u have to force me to say how i feel



to u, forgiveness is easy
to me, i tend to dwell on the hurt, the past



to u, tolerance is easy. accepting me even when isabella comes
to me, once i hate it, u get it



to u, everything must be settled right away
to me, time is the key



to u, once u've made a decision to love, u stick to it
to me, i let emotions and thoughts overwhelm me






whenever i look at u with kids.... i love u even more
the way u teach them
the way u look at them
the way u play with them
the way u suddenly turn into their age



throughout this few weeks, many things happened
things that made us feel uncomfortable
made us feel unhappy
made us feel bahs




but u never gave up
u kept saying that this will only make our relationship stronger
and truly
it did
our relationship did get stronger
and i thank God for that




honestly, for the very first time
i never thought of giving up
i just let myself get numb inside
i let myself fade away
let myself back away
which i shouldnt have done

u offered ur love
u offered ur hand to make me feel secure
u offered a hug. to hug all the hurt and pain away

u were there to offer ur help even though it's last minute
u were there to support and encourage me
u were there to love me whenever and wherever, no matter




just wanna say

THANK
Y O U
for being there for me,
for loving me
BABES!!!!

larissa choo jia en

she was born one week before luke =)
finally i got some pictures
didnt even realize i took some of them
i'll post it up soon =)

yian, u should have asked li ann or alex to take for us. then u can be in the picture

luke damien wong

i hope that i spelled his name correctly. seriously dont know how to spell damien. or damian or however. dont know. hahaha. oh wells. all i know is that he's cute! aahhaha. so so tiny and so so nice to carry!

PRESENTING.......
LUKE
DAMIEN
WONG!!!!!!!!!





*claps claps*

a new baby to teach soon =)

he's winking!
he's winking!
hahahaha
how lame can i be

awwwww
2 babies =)


simply adorable

merdeka day

i know i know. this is like a really really late post. ahhaa. what to do. for the past week i've been rushing for midterms. this week we're getting back all our results. oh gosh! some of which im proud of and some...... just.... oh wells. serve me right aint it? anyways... what some of us did on merdeka day. couldnt join the collegians for their trip. so we decided to have our own activity. hehe =) had a really really great time





this is gonna be short and sweet. cuz gotta get ready to go on a date with *ahem* hehehe

the photographer for the day
ur's truly

all the stuff we bought
guess we shouldnt go shopping for groceries on an empty stomach
u'll end up regretting over half of the stuff u bought
hahahaha



we had different chef for the day

presenting





chef # 1
eddie wardie ng

he looks like he's molesting the steak right?

well noooo

he claims that he's massaging it

ahhaha

bahs

chef # 2
cia & i

michie giving a thumbs up for the yummy potato salad
hehehe

we made this delicious potato "salad"

added with wonderful, yummy stuff

at random

but but but

it turned out great

too bad didnt take a picture of the latest version of our potato salad cuz we added in bacon as well

chef #3
andrew

he made the mushroom soup and garlic bread

chef #4

michie

she made my ah yi's wonderful pasta

dont worry dont worry

it was good =)

can improve though

hehe


chef # 5
cia
she made the salad too

the whole day was fun and great and we didnt get food poisoning or something. hahaha we watched 2 movies after that. the simpsons movie and next. ed and cia slept during the simpsons movie. michie and andrew laughed and enjoyed the movie. i was wondering why in the world am i watching this silly show and missing my dearest so so much!



the movie next was awesome! it's worth watching. really really cool. except that nicholas cage got together with a really young and emmm... unsuitable lady for him. hahaha. they should have chosen an older woman or something. he's too old to have such a young, beautiful girlfriend. it's just weird. ahhaha

delz surprise party

i know i know... it's a long time ago. but i've been busy and i havent been able to use the comp u know. most of the time my brother is using it. oh wells, at least he's staying back home now. =) to have one thing, i gotta sacrifice another.

* over u *

now that it's all said and done
i cant believe u were the one
to build me up and tear me down
like an old abandoned house
what u said when u left
just left me cold and out of breath
i fell too far, was in way too deep
guess i let u get the best of me

well, i never saw it coming
and i should've started running
a long, long time ago
and i never thought i'd doubt u
im better off without u
more than u, more than u know
im slowly getting closure
i guess it's really over
im finally getting better
and now im picking up the pieces
from spending all of these years
putting my heart back together
cause the day i thought i never get through
i got over u

u took a hammer to these walls
dragged the memories down the hall
packed ur bags and walk away
there was nothing i could say
and when u slammed the front door shut
a lot of others opened up
so did my eyes
so i could see
that u were never the best for me

the return of she-who-must-not-be-named

oh no... she's back!
*sirens blaring*
warning words coming out of everywhere
asking everyone to beware

CAUTION
CAUTION

she is out again
she has found her own way out
she managed to free herself from the chains that bound her



oh God!
save us all
how can we banish her to the ends of the earth?

M.I.A

once again im gonna be missing in action. basically, my midterm is gonna start tmr and i have not started studying any of my subjects besides those that i had class tests on. i am really freaking out right now. but i wonder why i still have the time to blog bout it. bahs. hahahaha


i dont think i will be missed because i have been m.i.a for so long anyways. all because of my flu and cough. ahahha. so hopefully i will be able to do well in this exam cuz really..... it's harder than the first sem exams. sighhh... guess i better stop writing nonsense and get down to studying. sheesh



im really testing God huh? like seeing how well He work in my life. making Him do the hard work together with me. burning midnight oil together with me. im sure He must be banging His head now... having to work extra cuz of me being so lazy. but but but.... that's why He's God. if i would have been God, i would not help me at all. ahhahaha. eish




till the next time, i'll have tons to update =) ahhaha. oh wells, that has got to wait =) have a great week ahead
*grin*

frootz

long long time since i've updated my blog. i know i know. how sad huh? i feel like my blog has been dead. well, i do felt like i was bout to die this whole week. cuz im down with flu and cough. so hopefully i'll be well soon. still feeling sick. anyways, been doing alot of stuff and my midterm is coming soon. i havent even started studying yet. i even forgot to bring back my books to study. how good huh? ahha

anyway... last sunday, andrew's company had some event in ttdi park. we had to pay 10 bucks for charity and we get to eat all the fruits we want. there was loads of food. so kevin and i decided to go. it was a really fun time. haha. except the clown part. hehe =)

this was all the fruits there

not forgetting the durians too hehe

our tags

my knight =)

if any of u dont really know me, u wont know that im terribly terrified of clowns. when i see them i just run away. not just clowns but those wearing the suits. like a&w bear or something like that. so i've never been able to get one of those long balloons made into weird shapes.




so my darling sweetie went and get me one

my honey

he got me a heart
his "heart"

i was a happy girl

now my life is filled with his love as well =)

i heart u babes =)
missing u so much!

a friend

hey... meet isabella
a girl whom i knew since the day i was born
she's a close friend
it's like we know each other inside and out
at times we are so alike
but sometimes i feel like i dont know her at all





she's the kind of person who gives up whenever things dont go her way
she loves to wallow in self pity
she's still like that even when people gives in to what she wants
she wants people to pamper her
she wants people to do the things that she expects them to do(like as though they can read her mind)




she wants everything to go her way
the way that she expects
the way that she imagines it to be
the way that she fantasizes




constantly she tells me that she hates herself
she thinks that she's not worthy of love
she thinks that everyone is against her
she even pushes away the person who loves her so much
that's the part she hates the most







remember when i say that at times we are so much alike?
hahaha
this is the time when i feel that we're so much alike

decisions

sigh
im so sad
i hate making decisions
i hate it when i make wrong estimations
i hate it when i think that i have alot of time in my hands




today i was forced to make the most unpeaceful decision i've ever made

i forgot that tonight i had plans

i felt that i needed to do something today

luckily ashley smsed me bout dinner

but in the end of the day, i decided that i will not go

the decision was also supported by kevin

sigh

i've never felt like this before

i didnt feel the peace when i made the decision at all

i didnt feel good when i decided not to go

i felt like i've made the biggest mistake of my life

sigh

i wish that i would never again be stucked in this miserable cross road

but oh wells

this is life

it is filled with cross roads, choices to make, good and bad

aih

so many things to do

so little time

spring cleaning

wow... i managed to clean up my table. how amazing. i never thought that this day will come. but it did. i finally got tired of postponing my spring cleaning days that i've finally done something bout it. actually, it's because wing lian has moved back here and he has been in my room like constantly. so i couldnt stand it. my own rubbish i still can bear. but have to have another person as well? bahs cannot cannot. hahaha

so im so proud of myself that i manage to make my table and room look clean. just wondering how long this will last. hahaha

groan

im an extremist

once i start thinking,
i tend to go to one extreme to the other
i can be VERY happy or VERY sad

once something dont go my way
once something dont make my day
i tend to give up
tend to think that maybe it's not right
that maybe it's not meant to be




this is me

trip to a park

im so happy that he has started classes. i know it's abit bad in my part but i get to see him in college and if our schedule's permit, he fetches me home or we just meet for lunch.




me is a happy girl



i've never been to this park near my house before. it's near mcd's. it's been there for a million years. it's just that i never go there. so today we bought an ice cream from mcd's and went over there for a walk


wow. the pond is really so so so "clean" that makes me enjoy the scenery even more

i just notice that this pic
makes us look like we're dancing

i hate to admit this.... but his eyes IS bigger than mine. sheesh.




no la.. maybe it was just the sun. that's why. u know me and the sun do not mix well. hahhaa




ps. i love u babes =)

ooo... ahhh... *goggleed eyed*

im finally over and done with my seminar presentation. dressed formally unlike my usual t-shirts. palms and feet sweating profusely. sheesh. went up there. talked so much. was so proud of myself for that. cuz usually im the shy one. showed my slides. then guess how much i got?? i was so shock when i saw my evaluation paper thingy. i got 90%!!! can u believe it? no right? so do i. truly by God's grace and wonders. i would have never done so well without my Father up in heaven =)


THANK YOU GOD! =)

yack yack yack

im not the kind of person who loves to talk esp. around a huge number of ppl. i only talk alot around ppl that im close to. i really dont know what to do. my seminar presentation is coming up. i still think that i have time to prepare my slides and presentation. hence, the slumber-ness right now. i dont know whether there's such a word as that but oh wells. i dont care. as long as u get the idea. ahhaha.

so anyway... about my seminar presentation... it is an individual presentation and we are required to talk bout 30 mins. 15 mins is for u to present whatever u wanna present then another 15 mins is for Q&A. it's like going for meetings and presenting to ur clients bout what u wanna sell to them or create some sort of awareness. gosh! some ppl has gotten over this tough presentation already and they make it seem so easy. sigh

really hope that i'll do better cuz some of them couldnt present so well and some showed some indecent pictures. yucks!

happy happy me

happy to be called family





*huge-wide-little-happy-girl grin*

rainbow.....!

on friday my darling was SO sweet to come and help me with making a rainbow for my lesson today. sadly.... i forgot to take a picture of the beautiful rainbow. sigh.


before we started our work of art. we decided to cook lunch. it was fun cooking with him. we've cooked together once or twice. it's really fun la. what with experimenting all the nonsense. putting in everything we think that would make the food taste better. ahaha. of course there was alot of arguments. we were arguing bout every single thing bout how to cook and what to put into the food but the food tasted good. ahahha. emmm, let me clarify. we cooked egg with sausages and pasta(those easy easy one la) but only the egg tasted good. the pasta was blehsss. horrible. but oh wells, that's the result of not learning how to cook. ahaha.



so after lunch, we started with our rainbow. it was tough drawing it. tough outlining it. tough coloring it. cheh wahhh! talked until like i did it all. HE did it all. okay okay.. most of it la. im not so bad u know. ehhee. he sat there patiently drawing lines. measuring and especially having me as his "boss". this not perfect that not perfect. the size is not right. too big. too much complains cuz i wasnt the one doing it. ahaha

he was busy drawing and rushing against time
here i was.... eagerly wanting to take loads of picture

i did this. nice lehhh..
too bad didnt take picture of the rainbow
nevermind
come to church then u can see =)